July 18, 2020

2020.07.18

Expectation.

Personal reading in the morning, 7-10.

Walk, L sits and handstands at 10; also put the beans I soaked in the pressure cooker.

C work.

Lunch?

A work.

Meeting for C, 2-3pm.

See if my friend wants to talk. I think he is having a hard time and I'm worried about him, but he always backs out of talking. I wish he would take care of himself better.

Make black bean brownies or meal prep for the week.

Reality.

Worked on A 7-10 while "clone high" played in the background.

10:-10:45 stress and stress eating over things I can't control or do much about immediately

Continued to stress out and talk to a friend online until 11:30, then I went for a walk.

Lunch

I went to an online meeting, 2-3:30.

Then I walked for about 2 hours while talking on the phone with a friend.

I ate food while making black bean brownie batter (to eat with a spoon like a heathen) and thought about if I should start weighing my food again.

I talked to my mom.

7pm, I went back to work on A and watch Clone High. Link to the show: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BEhyu3ZvqP8

I watched via watch2gether with a friend. We watched for 3.5 hours, but I still have more A work. (It's not work that requires my full attention, so I play stuff in the background.)

There's so much stuff that I don't know what the "right" thing to do is. I wish I could appeal to a higher force or something. This is where religion is nice and convenient.

I'm thinking of picking up intermittent fasting with a wide, generous 14:10 window again, or not eating after 5pm like I used to. I don't know.

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