Everything Ends, My Quarantine is Over

10:20 AM

A quick summary of my quarantine on a cruise ship is that they placed me in a room and I just stayed in there the whole past week. If I needed anything, I just picked up the phone and dialed room service and they’d provide me with anything I wanted. They gave me free wifi which is normally $300 for the entire cruise. They gave me completely free room service too and whatever vegan foods I wanted they provided.

And that’s the thing, I could have ordered unlimited or whatever I wanted. I mean daily I would order a fruit bowl, one day I ordered like 4 of them. Like I said, pretty much whatever I asked for they fulfilled. Amazing. Also the dishes were amazing. Very awesome. I had such a wonderful time in quarantine.

I did a lot of reading, browsing the internet, browsing social media, texting Wahl, pretty much normal stuff I’d be doing every day anyway. Except I had the luxury of anytime room service.

So when I tested negative today, I felt great but also a little sad because I was to be released from quarantine. I wrote a short post about it on Facebook and included a shirtless picture of myself because I wanted to show off. And then I posted it after I got my parents opinion on it. As of now it has 32 likes which is awesome. I don’t even know if I look good. I have no idea. I wanted to post it publicly and hope I got one compliment and I did, so that’s nice!

The first thing I did after being released was walk for an hour. I actually wanted to walk for 6 hours, but haha, that did not happen. The rest of the time just went by rapidly. I don’t recall doing much.

11:12 PM

I typed all the above outside by the way, on top of the cruise ship, while I chilled underneath the night sky in the second picture. It was cold, and my hands were starting to freeze, so I went back in. I had a really hard time typing up anything out there, so typing up a sentence took like a minute or two.

But yeah I am very emotional right now. I've been listening to the song "Sugar, We're Going Down" by Fall Out Boy on repeat the whole time. I love the chorus in the song, it's so good. Down down in an earlier round, and sugar we're going down swinging, I'll be your number one with a bullet, a loaded god-complex cock it and pull it. I sung it with Eda when she was over, and I think about her anytime I hear the song haha, because she's the one that popularized it for me. I have no idea what these lyrics mean by the way. I think the entire song is about a relationship and cheating and breaking up and the chorus is like some drama of hatred between them. I have no idea what it means, I need to look up the song meaning.

I searched it up on Genius.com and now that I've read what it means, it's kind of obvious. But it wasn't at the time. Yeah the song is about romance and relationships and drama and break ups. What "Down down in an earlier round, and sugar we're going down swinging" is a boxing reference that means a person goes down in an early round, and going down swinging means that even though a person is about to fall, they're still swinging their fists hoping to land a lucky blow. In terms of context of the song, it means they broke up earlier than expected and they're both attacking each other on the way down.

I am emotional because I am still in love with Wahl, and basically the whole past week or two we've been texting each other daily, like once or twice a day. We'd send long messages to each other, take 8-12 hours to reply to each other, and it was so much fun. She's back in her state now and is taking a longer time to reply again. Ugh. Well it's been like almost 48 hours since she last replied, so that's kinda annoying.

I sent her the most loving messages possibly so far, even though I do that all the time. I don't even know. But I am a little stressed by her taking a while to reply. I really like her a lot and really want to be with her, and she already knows this, I've it a bunch of times and made it pretty obvious.

Anyway I am so sleepy or I'd write more. I have to wake up early tomorrow so I'm gonna go to sleep now.