April 5, 2023

Mixed feelings

So after the other apartment fell through (the woman renting it is apparently in real estate but she appears to have just ghosted me). My boyfriend took his turn looking for places and we widened our search to include basement apartments. We found a place that will cost us a fraction of what the other place would have cost us! So that was fantastic news and they promised that we would know by the end of the week if we got it. This is fantastic news because I am so tired of looking for a place and it will be so nice to know that we have somewhere to go. I am also really looking forward to the end of my long drives.

I am a little stressed about work at the moment. I have got a couple of sales on the go but they are both consignment sales and won't count toward my actual monthly goals. I am also really dragging my feet about calling people I need to call for work because I am anxious. I always feel like I am bothering people and I am still learning the ropes so I should cut myself some slack but I have this habit of being harder on myself than I should be and immediately expecting perfection from myself. I think I would get further and get a lot more work done if I would just accept my own flaws and learn from my mistakes rather than attempting to not make any. The more mistakes you make the more you can learn from them and get better.

It is hard to do a job that is mostly about communicating with people and making phone calls when I get anxious every time I have to make a phone call. I don't even know why I get so anxious, what is the worst that can happen? They say no and are a little rude? Still I struggle.

All we can keep doing everyday is to push forward and try to do better than the day before.

Written by awesomesocks96

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