Eat the Rich

The screw ups continue as yesterday I crashed another boat. Picture this, I've just crashed a $300,000 boat over the weekend, I am nervous but trying to power through. Getting in a boat now makes me shake uncontrollably. Not great when getting in a boat is literally my job. My boss has a "if you fall off a horse you get back on it" mentality. I am all for this mentality, when it comes to horses, I never met a horse that I wouldn't get back on after I fell off. But boats are not horses. And so I was asked to drive another boat, I let it be known that I was uncomfortable with the situation but my boss, trying to be supportive told me that I would be fine. I was not fine! I crashed another boat. Customers are going to be calling for my head. I was already a little fed up with my job and considering quitting and now I may not even get the chance to quit because I feel like I am going to get fired. My boss has assured me that everything will be fine and we will get it dealt with but I am not so sure.

I also spent way too much time in the sun yesterday without sunscreen on which is very bad for me as I am basically allergic to UV. My skin is red and angry and I have probably caused myself a flare up of my disease. So I am already aware that because of my health I won't be able to keep this job up. Yet I am reluctant to look for something else because I love the people that I work with.

I will definitely be leaving at some point. It sounds like BF has decided that he wants to go to Law school in the UK so we are planning to move to the UK in the next couple of years for that. So now it is going to be all about saving money towards that. Which I hope I can still do if I am going to have to leave this job. Maybe car sales would be better for me. All in all it has been a learning experience for me.

Sometimes they say do what you love and you'll never work a day in your life but I am finding that if you mix something you love with work, you start to hate the thing you loved. All that I am interested in is going for boat rides in my boats. I don't care about these stupid new boats. I hate them. I don't want the fear of messing up. I finally understand why my grandfather has always preferred our aluminum boats to the fiber glass. They stand up a lot better and who cares if they have a couple of scratches.

I am sick of dealing with rich people who don't seem to understand that accidents happen. Terribly sorry I banged up your toy a little bit so that you can use it for one less week this year! When you are boating, sometimes things happen beyond your control. These same pricks will give their 16 year old the keys to these things and be totally fine about it when they hit a rock. It makes me so angry to think that there are people out there who don't know where their next meal is coming from but these people lose their mind over a scratch in a boat. Which I get is quite inconvenient and it sucks to have spent a lot of money on something and have it get beat up, but the thing is still useable and it is not being fixed on the customers dime. So suck it up. Eat the rich!