Sugar days

My sick days are nearly over - headache from yesterday is nearly gone, but I still eat liquids mostly and I'm so full of sugar in these - so Im going to make my own coctails with fruits and milk or buttermilk. Tonight I will go to work, I will try to take it easy - it is time to move a little though.

I sended a message to the guy I like on tuesday and he didn't write back yet - earlier he reacted when I was in some kind of emergency. Sigh, well...

I spended a week at home and my apartment is a mess - I wasn't able to organize myself to do anything - I just did a laundry, that's all. I will work a lot for a next week so if I don't do anything today I will live in this mess.

This is nice, sunny day. One week more and I hope I will be spending my days on the beach on the local lake.

Im sad he didnt write. I have some complicated situation in this relationship - I just write with someone, now, 2 and half year, and we can't get to any conclusion. There are sobie fears on both sides. From mine I decided I just won't go mad and cut contact as always - but wow it took time!! He is my old friend and I know him for ages, like 23 years :P. Tried during those 2 and half year to help it with some therapies but failed in it.

I really need to clean a bit....