Slowly Actually Living My Life

Today, I didn't wake up early ideally, but I didn't regret it because I was able to sleep happily and wake up with a profound sense of liveliness. Because of that, usual things that makes me upset and angry with myself didn't take any effect. I have been on a process of affirming myself with positivity and eliminating any kind of self-sabotage because it doesn't add any value in my life and in my mental health.

I could say that I'm pretty much productive today without feeling burned-out, I felt really fulfilled and accomplished for being able to do chores and clean my home, it felt really cleansing not only physically but also spiritually, I feel healed seeing my environment so tidy and clean. I also spent considerable amount of time for self-care; using my newly bought conditioner and body wash, actually using the lotion, toner and makeups that I've bought before really made me feel like "Damn, I'm in such a treat", It really is a wonderful experience. Actually, for the past few years, I have went into a state of impulse buying, maybe I really needed those things I bought, I wanted them because I didn't have them, I was in such a state of lack, and because of that, I wasn't even able to use them constantly because I just constantly feel depressed every day and don't have the energy to do self-care; my skincare routine until the time that the products had expired. And I just constantly regret over it, constantly but still doing it. Although, that's only in the past, I have changed, I cherish and savor everything that I have, I'm now in a state of abundance, I feel really blessed to live such life with a newly-found happiness in the mundane.