Wednesday work day

My mornings are when allllll tasks, creative, chores or otherwise, gets complete. I struggle to make it through a whole “on the go” and have to plan around this. Constantly. Even my closest friend doesn’t truly understand me. She says she does. She claims she goes through the same thing. All while working 8-12 hours a day and second job meaning she has NO days off. I promise you meg, you DONT get it! If you working that much, and also cleaning your home and doing laundry and cooking, eating and cleaning up and also maintaining all your appointments, YOU DO NOT GET ME! Just writing all of what you do makes me dizzy. And my goal in this life is NOT about figuring out how to handle cramming EVERYTHING in. My number one goal is acceptance of capacity, and learning how to reward myself when chore tasks get done. Meaning: if spend and hour cleaning, I rest timer and then spend 30 minutes doing one of my special interests as a way of recharging and resetting my neural network I call a brain.

sidenote: I also just started using forest. What an awesome app! My forest is small still but I’m figuring out how I want to be using it. The Habitica/forest combo is brilliant! All my poms are finally getting done and even more being created as I move through my day. I love this journaling sight too. These three are seriously re-writing my entire life’s story! I’m in love❤️🥰 lol

im also confused about how others use Habitica. I have a ton of dailies, todo’s, and habits that I tic off every single day. From “stand up” to tracking my cigarette intake to make sure I’m NOT smoking more that one pack per day. Everything I do, I create a daily or habit around. All projects get entered into my “todo” as a reminder for myself. I track and time myself with the goal of seeing just how much time gets waisted and how much do I do that causes my overwhelm and anxiousness, inevitably leading to meltdowns. My point is that I’m involved in a party with six others and every battle we commit to and finish, every single time, I’m the one winning these battles. My “experience” is at 2800 and mana is at 344. 100’s more than theirs! They all mostly hover around 90 experience points and well under 100 mana😳 consistently I’m the only defeating and the battle ends within one day of starting it. I’m in a party of 6 but it’s a one man battle. That couldn’t be fun for them and I want to know why this is. Am I the only one using this game the way I do? I thought the whole point of gamifying one’s life was to gamify everything in my life🤷‍♀️ or am I cheating? I’m also obsessive and CAN NOT go to bed with dailies incomplete so I almost never lose health points. I’m looking to find another party that has people fighting the way I do. So it doesn’t feel so much like a one man show. I feel bad and have even asked the question in our group chat. They are non responsive. Non of them communicate with the group. It’s weird to me. There is no interaction between party members. So yeah, new party? Or educate myself on how the game is suppose to be used? HELPPPPP ME PLEASE!!