insecurity (vent)

yesterday's PE class encouraged me to write this.

i literally can't do a pushup. im the only one in my class who can't do a pushup. why?? i don't know. i literally cannot go down, and if I tried to, my elbows wouldn't be the correct way and id go all the way down. i also don't know how to shift my weight down. how?? HOW???? it's just embarrassing to me. and I wish I wasn't like this.

some boys were chasing me when I was running (we had to run down the middle) and they started barking and laughing at me. i almost cried. i cried silently on the bus ride home. i hated that day. and now I have to do it again today.

i wish i could do a pushup.