It's okay if you're not productive today

This weekend I ran out of energy to be productive, it felt like the chain of good habits that I was still in the process of building was broken. Among them is doing regular journaling here. At the weekend, I had planned to do a survey of the engagement ring that I would wear. Of course it didn't materialize for many reasons, apart from feeling like I had run out of energy to leave the house, there was something on my mind, "when can my Middle Brother be taken to the hospital immediately and what will be the next treatment?" because it feels like it is my responsibility at home. Luckily this time, my oldest brother will also help with the transfer to the hospital and the administration even though it will sacrifice half a day of work on Monday.

When my mind is full and I feel guilty for not being productive, I remember these two things:

"The Importance of Mental Well-Being: Allowing yourself to feel sad or unproductive is an important step in maintaining your mental well-being. If you always suppress or hide negative feelings, it can have a negative impact on your well-being in the long run."

"Humans Are Not Machines: Remember that we are not machines or robots that must always perform at high levels. Humans have a variety of emotions, and it is impossible to always be at the peak of productivity and happiness."

I gained this understanding from the healing room class I attended. There the speakers were psychologists, psychiatrists and doctors specializing in mental disorders, and the material presented was how we can "accept ourselves" completely as we are. How do we build coping mechanisms, and things related to strengthening our mentality which has been destroyed due to tragedy, past trauma, or an inner child that has not been controlled properly

When you are able to accept your condition, something unexpected happens to you. So, last Friday I received information regarding job vacancies as a state civil servant in the city where my fiancé will live, and I immediately collected the required documents in installments, including the TOEFL test. After completing TOEFL and seeing the formation of existing positions, there were doubts about registering because I felt "not finished" acquiring the knowledge that I was targeting to have at the company where I currently work. Today, my fiancé strengthened me and reminded me of our "goals", reminded me not to make rash decisions, and provided support so that I could stay at my current job. I am grateful that I met a fiancé who is so understanding and can accept me. This again gives me the enthusiasm to fight!

because the energy has been restored, let's maximize our days again for the next week!!!