The Past Week

2:28 AM (of Sunday, November 5th 2023)

Today is Saturday, November 4th 2023. So the past week has been pretty busy I guess. I should definitely have kept a daily journal entry so that everything makes more sense, but I can quickly summarize the past week. The whole week was a weekday, so I had to do some work every day. It was also Halloween at some point this week, so I did stuff for that day too, and the day before. Like the whole week was packed with events, Halloween actually felt like it was months ago at this point, but it was only on Tuesday.

On Tuesday, me, Eric, and Guy all went out to Condado at night and did some Halloween stuff. Mainly Guy just dressed up as Michael Myers and he went around scaring people in town. Meanwhile Eric and I basically walked all around Condado and even crossed the bridge that goes over to Viejo San Juan. We got some boba tea, and had fun the whole night together. While walking across the bridge, some women catcalled us as she drove by, "diablo papi" I think is what she said, that's what Eric said she said. The only part I heard myself was the papi. Oh, actually, I just googled that phrase, she probably yelled out "Damelo papi" which means give it to me daddy.

After that we went over to the T-Mobile center and basically just hung around there. That was cool. There were also girls hitting on us. I think it was Eric. He's an attractive guy that some girls asked him to take a picture of them, and then they just stood around him after, giggling. I saw them as trying to get his attention, he was kinda oblivious to it. Same with the girls that catcalled us, I think it was him that they saw. Wow.

I worked out daily, doing at least some walking or cardio, or strength training every day this week. I've stayed the same weight, and so my appearance has remained the same. Compared to fasting, I would basically lose a pound a day, and my appearance would change drastically every single day. I think it's a good idea to fast again for two weeks, and then rebuild muscle from there. It's just incredibly hard to fast.

Wahl and I messaged each other basically every day of the week. Today (Saturday) night I found out she disabled one of my accounts on IG from being able to view her stories. I found out when I signed onto another account, and was able to view her stories from there, but they weren't at all appearing on the main account I'm using now. That's weird right? I looked it up online, and found out the same has happened to some other guys where a date or gf or something also disabled them from viewing their stories. The people in the comments, and there were hundreds of comments, giving advice basically said they aren't interested and to just move on., they were pretty much all unanimous on that.

I then messaged Wahl tonight that it's obvious she isn't interested in me at all, and goodbye and good luck. Not mentioning that I saw how she disabled me from viewing her stories. Instead of following that account, which a friend would do, she just hid it from viewing her stories. And yeah she isn't even following that account, we weren't even mutuals. That's depressing.

I messaged Ami and Lia after. They're friends I can message any time about anything. We had a good chat about it. Both were pretty helpful in helping me manage how I feel about the whole thing.

Anyway I just feel depressed about the whole thing, telling her goodbye. I still think she's amazing. I doubt I will ever find anyone in my entire life that I like more than her, ever. It's all opinion anyway, eye of the beholder and all that. I literally never liked anyone more than her, and I doubt I ever will. The heartbreak hurts a lot.