Did Dailies Again, Some Thoughts

12:40 AM (of Sunday, March 3rd 2024)

Today is Saturday, March 2nd 2024 and I just did my dailies again today. It all took like an hour or two, and then nothing else. I basically just browsed X or the Internet for the rest of the day, doing absolutely nothing else. I don't even know how time can go by so quickly. One moment I'm waking up, and I do my dailies, the next the day is already done.

So far I haven't noticed any changes really. Every time I sweep the floor in the morning, there's always dirt, dust, lint, hair, etc. that's swept up. Always. I'm literally sweeping the floor every single day, making it as clean as I can, every day, and without fail, the next day the floor is always dirty again. It's so surprising because I'm not intentionally making mess on the floor every day, and yet I'm always sweeping up dust into the dust bin, a lot of it. This goes to show cleaning is a daily maintenance thing.

Since I've been doing pull ups and chin ups every day for a few days now, I have definitely gotten better at it. When I first started, yeah I could do 5 in a row, but it wouldn't be me going all the way down, maybe I'd go halfway down, and then it'd be hard to pull myself back up. Now I'm having a much easier time doing pull ups and chin ups, and I can pretty much go all the way down, and pull myself all the way back up, and I can do more than 5 in a row of both chin ups and pull ups. I wrote before that I could do 10 pull ups in a row, but it would be in a bad form. I don't actually know if I want to even attempt 10 pull ups at the moment, because my fingers start to hurt after even doing 5 or 6 in a row.

I haven't lost any weight. Since my break up with Mary, I've actually gained five pounds, because I couldn't control my eating. And five pounds brings about a major change in appearance, it's not even funny. I look way different today compared to when Mary was here. Anyway, I'm planning on losing 30 pounds, having six pack abs, and then maybe Mary would take me back. I'd learn my lessons about showing love and interest, so if I were given another chance, I wouldn't mess up again. I would be so happy to be with her again.

The push ups have always been easy, but ever since I've been doing like 20+ push ups a day, on my fists too, not my palms, they've gotten a lot easier. I feel like one push ups is a piece of cake now, it's literally so effortless for me to do one.

I guess my teeth and mouth are cleaner too, after brushing my teeth and flossing every morning and at night. Previously, of course I'd do this, but it was either or, not both. I'd either brush my teeth and floss in the morning, or I'd do it at night, but not both. Sometimes I even skipped it. But after adding it as a daily, I've been doing it every day.

I've been doing the brain training exercises, but I'm not really sure how that has helped me, if it has at all. I can do 4 digit subtraction problems in my head very easily now, but I need more practice with like five to ten digit problems, but they don't exist. Four digits is the highest subtraction problems that this one brain training game offers. I'm in the 99.99th percentile for subtraction in that game too, I reached the highest difficulty and achieved one of the highest scores in the game. I can do 9183- 8978 extremely quickly, the answer is 205. Easy. But yeah, I don't know how this helps me in life.

So have I noticed any changes? It feels like I have not noticed any changes in anything basically, after doing all these dailies for like over a week or however long by now. It feels that way, but I know some changes and progress have been made.

Another thing is that I feel so healthy and fine, I have a decent amount of energy, I could have walked for 10 hours today if I wanted to. I'm just lazy I guess? I literally have so much ability and potential, but I just waste it, because expending energy sucks, so I just sit around or lie in bed the whole day. The whole day. This is why I'm so appreciative of Wahl and her discipline. I don't know how she does it. I think it's her genetics. Doing enough reading, I've also realized a lot of our personality, preferences, intelligence, how conscientious we are, and what we're interested in, it's mainly genetics.

The twin studies again. I'm not sure if I've already brought it up, but the many different identical twin studies, where twins can be separated from birth, live an entire continent or ocean apart, and they still develop the same weird habits, same interests, they study the same subject in college, and often even the same exact job, no matter how obscure that job or role is, like an elementary school hockey teacher for example. The twins might both get the same kind of dog and give them the same exact name, or they would marry someone with the same name, and have a kid with the same name. It is so fascinating what happens.

So based on that, I think a lot of us are the result of our genes, like 80% of our lives is due to our genes. I can cite the sources or whatever, but just doing a search on YouTube for "identical twins reunited" has many results for this and how similar the twins found each other to be. Another one is the Minnesota Twin Study for the intelligence that people inherit. Someone's performance in school too is based mainly on genetics. It's a truth that I would not have believed a year ago, but lately it's something I've realized.

The problem is that talking about this stuff, genetics, is taboo, mainly because discussions on genetics can involve race. I don't think it's a coincidence there is a certain race in the Olympics for example, that dominates in the running events. Same with the NFL and NBA, there is a race that is in general more athletic than the other races. In school, I don't think it's a coincidence either that a certain race there also dominates in the studies. This pattern is observable in every school and school district in the country. Is it a coincidence that the top athletes are one race, the top scholarly students are another?

Is it strange that there's a race stereotyped for being the top of the class in schools, and they often are? I didn't try in school, my parents didn't beat me or forced me to study, I didn't have a tutor, but I still mainly got straight A's in every class. I don't think I got lower than a B ever, in any of my classes. In 8th grade, I went to the All A Honor Roll party that we had every quarter, that's where all the "smart kids" were, and the demographics of the students at those parties were predictable. Should I go on?

Anyway, for most of my life, I thought that we were all blank slates, a "tabula rasa", a product of our environment, not genetics. That our personalities, intelligence, physical abilities, etc. were mainly due to environment. I've even had debates on this topic with people in real life and online. For the online debates, at some point maybe in 2011 or 2012, I remember debating people on the site OmniMaga about IQ, and that I posted that IQ was BS (because I read the book Outliers and learned of the 10k hour rule, that anyone can be good with 10k hours of practice). Anyway, I realize I'm wrong. I'd say by default we are 70% genetics, 20% environment, 10% luck/circumstance, but these can be changed depending on how strong the other variables become.

For example, let's say we are 70% genetics. However, if we are put into an environment, such as being trained to be good at chess (like the Polgar sisters), or to be good at golf (Tiger Woods), or to be good at tennis (the Williams sisters), then the environment can override genetics, like our makeup can end up being 70% environment, 20% genetics. Luck/circumstance can override everything too, like having the luck/circumstance of being born into a parent that trains their kid from birth.

Anyway, this could be considered some more race related genetic stuff, but yeah Wahl is Jewish. I don't think it's a coincidence that basically the most successful and powerful people in the world are Jewish. They have the highest IQ out of any group. There are just 13 million of them worldwide, such a tiny population, even fewer than the amount of vegans worldwide (which is around 80-100 million), but they have more than 400 Nobel Laureates. Compare that to the over 1.2 billion Muslims or whatever, only like 2 of them have become Nobel Laureates or whatever. I think it is fascinating that they have the highest percentage of doctors, professors, lawyers, etc. in their population. I think it's their genetics.

So Wahl is Jewish, and I deeply admire her discipline. I mean yeah I've met brilliant smart people, I was in all the honors and IB classes, I've met lots of people who work at top companies, and so on. But she stands out. Her discipline and ability to get through anything is just astounding. She's smarter than I am. I'm just better at computers, few people know computers as well as me. I'm typing this all up in Dvorak right now for example, less than 0.001% of the population can type using this, less than 0.001% of the population even knows what Dvorak is. But yeah, Wahl uses a standing desk all day. She can work 12 hours, and is on a standing desk the whole day, and she does it because she knows it's better than sitting. That's insane. I literally have the same knowledge, and I have standing desks at home, but I can't do what she's doing.

I mean I know about her, that's why I admire her. I'm not just gonna write down every story she told me or what I know about her, but man, her tenacity is just unbelievable, and yeah I think it's her genetics. Those Ashkenazi Jew genes are valuable I guess. I mean Lia is also Jewish, she's also got that tenacity going on, running her own business and everything, but, hmm, no, actually yeah, she's really disciplined and really organized as well, I've been to her home.

I'm dumb socially. I can get jealous and envious of people, and I can be competitive. I won't tell them I'm trying to beat them at whatever, but I'll silently improve on my own, and end up surpassing them. When I get to a high enough level not to care, then I just become lazy, there's nothing more to be envious about. I'm at a really high level with computers, so I'm really lazy in this area. I'm at a high level when it comes to like, net worth I guess, relatively speaking, so I'm lazy in this area too. But if all my friends start to have a girlfriend, then I will get jealous, and I will get a girlfriend of my own, then I don't get jealous anymore, and start to become lazy in that area too.

But the reason this affects me socially, is because I can't enjoy myself while I'm being envious of them. Yeah, I do eventually surpass them, which is a good thing, and I do enjoy myself later, but I'd feel panicked until then. I don't know why I get jealous or anything either, that's just my personality, again I think that's due to my genetics. I know I shouldn't really care if my friends have girlfriends or not, but if they all have one, and I don't, then I get serious. I'm pretty alone in this world. I don't have anyone to rely on emotionally. So it can be scary having an internal panick attack due to being envious about something. No one notices either, it's all within me, but I feel it, and it takes over me, my focus changes to just surpassing this arbitrary thing.

I haven't heard back from Wahl since I told her I had a girlfriend, which was in mid-January. She last told me she was fine meeting up again, but just as friends, not romantically, so I went with Mary romantically. Mary is the best girlfriend I've ever had (I've only had two, unless online ones count, then I've had three). She was amazing, a great partner and teammate. I miss her, and maybe we'll get back together again. I miss Wahl too actually. Will I meet up with either of them ever again?

On Twitter I have 1509 followers now. I love that. I started out with 4 followers, and now I have 1509. I started the account in 2012, and I tweeted some things, but I was never anyone. I never had more than 4 followers, so I quit, and didn't use the site until the end of 2022. Thanks to Elon Musk purchasing Twitter and allowing verified users to post tweets that get boosted to the top, a lot of my vegan posts started to get views (I want the whole world to stop hurting and killing animals), and I gained followers. I'm still a nobody I think, there's a lot of unverified no check-mark vegan accounts that have way more followers than me, but having the check-mark really helped boost my posts and account. One of my posts a few days ago got around 100k views. That's a lot of views.

I'm caught up on the anime Kingdom, and I'm now reading the manga. I think the main character Xin is overpowered now. I realize he just wins every battle he fights in, and there's no way he will be killed off, he's the main character, so I've gotten really annoyed at the series. I'm now just rooting for the "bad guys" to put a stop to Xin, but no matter how insane the defenses or how dastardly the plan, Xin overcomes everything and wins. I just feel really bad for the "bad guys" because they don't stand a chance. They don't. I'm not satisfied that Xin keeps on winning, because literally no one else stands a chance. All I'm seeing in Xin now is some invincible, untouchable, main character that destroys everything in his pah.

I'm reading the Kingdom manga now, and he just took down the enemy supreme commander of the battle they're in. I felt like he did that so easily. The enemy had this incredible defense, and he just tore through it like it was paper. While I'm reading I'm cheering on "the bad guys" and thinking come on, put a stop to this guy, but no, he just charges through unperturbed and destroys everybody. By destroy, I mean he ends all their lives, because this is a war manga, and they're fighting in wars, and yeah he can literally take down 100 people by himself, maybe even 1000 people just by himself. There can be like 1000 people in front of him, and he destroys them all. He is insanely overpowered.

In the beginning when he was weaker, all his triumphs felt heroic and well deserved, winning against impossible opponents. Now he literally just steamrolls anyone in his way. This is not realistic, this is not fun.

Anyway I am so sleepy now. I'd keep writing but I'm so tired. This is actually what stops most of my writing, is just me feeling sleepy after writing for a while. I'd honestly keep going if I could. I'm just too fatigued and about to pass out.

Anyway, that was my day today.