Just another day at my parent's home

1:08 AM (of Wednesday, August 7th, 2024)

Today is Tuesday, August 6th, 2024. I don't know what to say about today. I fell asleep at around 5 AM and woke up at around 10 AM, so I only got around 5 hours of sleep. The rest of the day, I was just on my computer, but I barely remember anything that I did. I did my brain training exercises of course, I do them every day, but that only takes about an hour to do.

I ate a bunch of fruits today, two plates full of grapes, blueberries, and blackberries, maybe around 200 calories. I also ate some junk food like an entire bag of chips along with some crackers, that's like 500 calories. I hate that I eat so much junk food. This morning prior to going to sleep, I ate all the leftovers from yesterday from Naked Lunch, which was a decent amount of food I think, another 500 calories. I also ate four scoops of protein powder with chocolate Soylent milk I bought recently to try out, that's another 600 calories. Lastly I ate half an avocado along with some rice, vegetables, and a Beyond Burger, another 600 calories. 2400 calories total. That's actually not so bad.

I still want to lose weight, so I need to limit my eating. If I really just focused on eating fruits and vegetables and cut out all of the junk food, it would be so easy to lose weight, because fruits and vegetables are barely any calories. Even a 5 pound bag full of mixed vegetables from Costco is only 1400 calories. The 4 pound bag of mixed berries with strawberries or raspberries (I have mixed memories of it being either), blueberries, and blackberries, is only 700 calories. These are entire bags of food that are hard to finish because they are so fulfilling, yet are so low in calories.

It is just so easy to eat a lot of food though, it is extremely easy for me to feel hungry and eat a lot of food. This is a problem every overweight person has. Our hunger and metabolism drive us to eat more, and we crave junk foods instead of healthy meals. It's not such as easy problem to solve as just "eat less and move more," we all know to do that, every overweight person knows we have to do this, yet it isn't easy for us to.

In comparison, throughout the entire day, my mom probably only ate like 800 calories or so. Yeah, really. Maybe a bit more, but probably not. She really does eat a very small amount only. She just doesn't feel any hunger pangs like I would that would drive her to eat more, or maybe she does, but she's able to control it more easily. It's weird, I have that ability as well, because when I am with other people, I can easily forego entire meals if there are no vegan options available, I will just say I'm not hungry, and not eat anything.

In fact, when I was working in an office in my second job that I got in 2018, I skipped breakfast and lunch practically every day, and just ate mainly rice and beans when I got home. There wasn't any free food provided like in my previous workplace, and I didn't want to prepare meals for lunch, so I just didn't eat. I skipped breakfast because I had to drop my mom off in the morning at 6:30 AM, so I didn't have any time to eat, and I just went straight to the office afterwards. So it was very easy for me to not eat anything at all.

I do have this ability to not eat anything, but it seems only in public. When I am in private, when there's junk food in the pantry, when I can make a delicious vanilla protein powder with chocolate almond milk, eaten sort of like a cereal, it's hard to resist. I also fasted for 14 days straight, twice, so I do have this ability to resist not eating, it's just very hard.

Anyway, I also did some arm exercises again today, with the barbells we have at my parent's home. The heaviest weight is only like 27 pounds or something, so I have to do multiple reps with that. I did 20 reps with each arm and probably 5 sets of dumbbell curls. This weight is very light to me, so I have to do more reps to feel anything. I just did a handful of exercises with this, again didn't really plan it out or anything. I just did them because I was bored, and didn't really properly set out to exercise today.

I didn't do any work today. I was planning to, but I didn't. I still honestly don't remember what I replaced those activities with. I think I just watched South Park for the majority of today. I did tweet some vegan activism posts like always, but I was probably on X for under 30 minutes today.

Anyway, that was my day today. That was my entire day today.