July 7, 2020

Serene Day

10:40 PM


I fell asleep last night at around 11 PM and woke up this morning at around 6 AM, so I got around 7 hours of sleep last night which is not bad. I wanted to go to sleep earlier but spent too much time writing last night's entry, the same thing will probably happen tonight.

Morning Study

i think the main thing I did this morning before work was study. I was supposed to work on finishing up my logs since I'm about 70% of the way there, but ended up not doing that. I'll work on that first thing tomorrow though. I ate some breakfast and watched George Hotz do his thing, listened to some Donald Knuth clips, and tried working on some problems.

Almost Relapsing

This wasn't only in the morning, but throughout the entire day I would almost relapse into my old ways. I don't know, there's just lots of urges I would get to do something I'm not supposed to, that I've supposedly cut from my life. At times I felt like a druggie who hasn't had his heroin fix for a few days after doing heroin every day for the last 10 years. They were such strong urges and impulses I really don't know how I managed to overcome them today.

One lesson I learned today is that I shouldn't compound mistakes on top of another. If I make a mistake and feel bad about it, I shouldn't compensate by doing something I shouldn't and adding on yet another mistake. Thinking about that actually, helped me get through the entire day without relapsing to any negative activities. Almost everything that I did today was phenomenal in terms of self-control.


Work was alright today. I made a really stupid social email mistake in the morning by asking some stupid questions and probably writing sentences I shouldn't have. I sent two emails out that had regretful content inside. Both recipients responded pretty well though, if they felt negatively about the emails they sure did not convey that. Anyway I worked on some things here and there, overall a normal working day.

Asking Someone Out

I guess this was one of the distinguishing events of the day, I asked someone out on a date. They politely refused which is all good, no problems there.

Walking Outside

Walking outside today was one of the most serene experiences. I had sent out that asking out message before going on a walk, and somehow everything just felt so calm and paceful. I listened to some interesting audio programs and got some new ideas, learned some new things. Overall it was just a very nice experience outside, things were so calm it felt like my resting heartrate was under 60 while walking.

Class Quiz

I took a quiz later when I got back home from walking around 9 PM, I ended up getting a 90% on it. It's not bad.

Anyway that was my day today. Tomorrow will be a new day with new challenges. I hope I don't relapse, and I'll work on finishing up my logs as the first activity of the day tomorrow.

Written by JustMegawatt

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