11:59 PM
Today has been another very busy day. I didn't go to sleep until around 1 AM last night, because I went back to working on the task I had for a client that I thought I finished earlier in the day yesterday. It turns out there were some issues with it, so I went back to working on it. I finished up a large part of it last night, and then I finished the rest today close to noon and it was good this time. I'm glad I was able to get it done.
I wrote a very descriptive dream log entry this morning for the dream I had last night. I'm trying to recall my dream again just now and I can't. Only after looking at that dream log entry do I start to remember. Again, I think humans evolved to forget dreams, or else we'd confuse dreams for real life memories. Sometimes it can be very hard to discern a dream from real life when we're going through them.
My dream last night was about jealousy. It involved one of my high school classmates, former best friend in elementary school, who became the football quarter back in my high school. He was there for like one or two years before he moved to California and I never heard from him again. This is all real by the way, that's his real history, I don't know how he ended up in this dream because I haven't thought about him in years, maybe in more than half a decade.
In this dream, it's very strange, I have fake dream memories inside of this dream. Basically in this dream, I remembered that I played these video games with my friend, and we had all these conversations and dialog together. Then in the dream, I hung out with this friend again in the present, and we reminisced about those olden times, and played those same games again together at my place. The entire thing is in my dream, the whole "past" memories were all in my dream, so was the "present" part. It's weird how dreams can be so detailed like that, and it made sense to me while I was going through it.
The next part is that we're somehow in high school again. The tables are set up so that it's 6 desks in a group, 3 facing each other, two columns. I'm sitting across from either my friend or Eric, in my dream log I couldn't tell either. He's next to two girls, the one to my left is a girl he's going out with or something, and to the right was Wahl. I was also sitting next to a girl on my right, and a guy on my left, I don't know who they were. The only clear characters are me, hs friend / Eric, and Wahl.
So at some point he was making out and cuddling with the girl on his right, my left, and they go elsewhere. The jealousy part is that Wahl and the other girl just follows them and sits close to them.
Meanwhile I was conversing with this other guy, classmate from elementary school that I haven't thought about in over a decade probably, about the notes I had taken and bragging about how complete my knowledge was. He set out to prove me wrong by stating that for this kind of protractor, there is always text at this part of it, and quizzed me on what that text said, and I admitted that my notes were not as complete as I thought, but I was still proud of my binder notes. I mean who cares about some words on a protractor anyway?
Anyway I can't do anything about jealousy except work on myself as much as I am able. That's pretty much all I can do.
They are pretty brief and rare, but I do have memories of girl being interested in me and even asking me out, when I didn't have any interest in them and they pursued me first. From middle school, high school, college, even work, even meeting strangers, very rare, but it's happened a few times. Some friends I've had experienced that far more often. For prom, probably my best friend at the time was asked out by several girls, including one I was interested in. We sat next to each other in biology class, and he actually went vegan in high school, fully vegan, and he was trying to talk me into it but I made excuses and lies. I'm not sure where he is today, he went on to medical school, and is probably a doctor today. I'm not jealous of him at all because he's not part of my immediate life anymore.
That's the thing about jealousy, is that it only affects us when we are somewhat close to the other person, at least that's how it works with me. I am sort of getting jealous of Eric's success on YouTube and his success with girls, but someone like Jake Paul or his brother, I don't remember his name, both of them live in Puerto Rico too and I've been to their fancy extremely wealthy giant houses neighborhood (there's 600+ homes in his neighborhood), but I'm not jealous of them when their success in both those areas is like 1000x greater than Eric's.
We really only get jealous of people we're somewhat close to, again, at least that's how it works with me. If Jake Paul and his brother and I were close friends, like we hung out, then I might get jealous of them, maybe. Or I might think that their success is so far out of my range that I can't even comprehend what to be jealous of.
Wahl messaged me again this morning, I missed her a lot. I like everything about her and I told her that. I've been waiting to get six pack abs first before responding to her again, it's been months. She called me habibi in her message this mroning, which is an endearing term she uses for close friends, so there was no way I wouldn't respond to that. I thought about what to message her again while I worked, and then I responded again at around 1 PM just summarizing things I've done the past few months. She hasn't responded the whole day.
I worked and took a nap and then worked some more. Eric called me at around 4 PM and we discussed training at the gym again and watching BeetleJuice 2. My dad and I wet to Home Depot to buy some mulch and new plants to plant. He's finished cleaning up the backyard basically and we needed to buy some materials so he could work on the garden. We brought all that stuff home and moved it to the back yard. I then just rested for a bit.
Then I went to the gym to train with Eric, Gus, and Guy. We just did a few different workouts, and we had a good time.
Then we saw the movie Beetlejuice Beetlejuice, or Beetlejuice 2, and it was a pretty interesting movie. Beetlejuice is supposed to be this omnipotent figure of the underworld, or something, I never saw the first movie. He's a powerful comedic character sort of like The Mask from 1994, able to manipulate reality in a comedy-like way, as long as it's in the underworld, and also in the real world too apparently, if he's been summoned there. At some point there's this undead police squad that's after him, and they are supposed to be the underworld crime stoppers, yet he wins against all of them by just saying, a single word, freeze, and they all froze.
Yet, the main antagonist of the film is his ex-wife who can suck souls out of the undead, she can potentially kill dead people basically, including Beetlejuice. Yet despite Beetlejuice's omnipotent abilities shown throughout the film, he apparently can't stop her, and how he wins is some other monster had to be summoned to eat her. Yeah. Why couldn't he just freeze her like he did the entire undead police force? He also has the ability to send dead people to hell, omnipotence like I said, but he couldn't stop his ex-wife? I don't get that.
I think the film is great, but it's lacking plot-wise because he's omnipotent. He could literally alter reality anyway he saw fit, obeying undead rules of course, and yet he couldn't stop his ex-wife. Otherwise, I thought the movie was fun and entertaining, with a decent amount of twists sprinkled throughout. It's very captivating and I enjoyed it.
Anyway, that was my day today.
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