7:21 PM
Today has been a moderately productive day. I slept in my office floor last night, because I reasoned maybe I might get more sleep sleeping on the floor than in my bed. There were months or a year or longer where I just slept on the floor, so I reasoned maybe I just sleep better on the floor? Anyway, I still got only 5 hours and 40 minutes of sleep, so it's around the average of how much sleep I get per night anyway. It's slightly above average actually.
I felt pretty low energy throughout the day. Not groggy, not tired, but unemotional and low energy. I didn't want to do any pull ups. Yet I just felt like trying it. Despite being low energy, I set a personal best of 8 pull ups in a row today. I did 8 chin ups in a row too. I've done 8 of both before, but the main difference is that my form wasn't proper form back then. Now I go all the way up, go all the way down, rest for a second at the bottom before going all the way back up. My form is proper this time, instead of not going all the way down and not pausing at the bottom either.
It was great achieving a new personal best. Now I'm going to continue doing 8 per day every day, until next week where I'll attempt a new maximum. I'm still continuing my pattern of doing a maximum attempt over the weekend, and then over the weekdays repeating that same maximum every day. So I'm going to do 8 pull ups and 8 chin ups in a row every day, starting tomorrow, until Saturday when I attempt a new best. I might take a break on Thursday and Friday too, to give myself a rest, which is what I did a few days ago.
Something unexpected happened today with my one of my brain training apps. There's this math game where you're given two math problems to solve, and you have to pick the one that has a greater number. For the level I'm at, the equations have at least two operations, one multiplication/division and/or a subtraction/addition. So the two equations might be "1. (4 x 5) - 7" and "2. (3 x 7) - 7" and you have to pick which is the greater one, or if they're both equal. The equations are usually so that the numbers are pretty close either way.
Today I set a new record in this game. Of course the scores aren't universal or anything, you can't see anyone else's score, you can really only compete with yourself. Still, I set a new record today that I don't know if I'll ever beat. For some reason, the equations just came by instantly to me. I was literally solving both problems in like a second or two after they showed up, instantaneously. After the round was over, I felt like I knew what it felt like to be a human calculator. My score beats all my past scores by a landslide. Considering I'm also already in the top 99th percentile in this game, I'd like to think my score would be in the top 100 if every score was ranked, though there's like 5+ million people who've played this game, so I don't know.
For Beat Saber, one of my scores got into the top 1000. It was like, rank 738 for the song called Beat Saber in the game Beat Saber. I never got close to that score ever again, and all my scores were deleted when I uninstalled the game and reinstalled it. It was seriously a top score though, out of millions of players, one of my scores was in the top 1000. Isn't that amazing? I got in the top 1500s for several other songs, but nothing compares to that rank 738 or so. Was I in the top 2000 best Beat Saber players at one point in time? That's interesting to think about. I don't play that game anymore nor do I think I will for a while, but it might've been.
The thing about Beat Saber is that it's hard to be perfect. There are a few songs I got a perfect combo on in Expert+, but those are like flukes basically. Even the easiest Expert+ songs are hard to get a perfect combo on. It doesn't even matter if I think the song is easy, it's still really hard to get a perfect combo on any song, even on easy mode I think. It's just hard to not make a mistake.
Anyway, I also set a new score in another brain training game today, another hard one too. I don't know how I was performing so well mentally today, when I felt so bored, neutral, and low energy. I wasn't psyched or energetic, I'm still not. I can be pretty fast in arithmetic calculations, but it doesn't mean I'm any good at math. Some of my friends think I know advanced math, just because I'm good at arithmetic. Even though I learned calculus in high school, and got A's in a lot of my math classes, I'm not good at any of that anymore. I might not even know how to do basic algebra and plotting points on a graph anymore. I don't know the formulas for the volumes of shapes anymore.
Today I tried drawing, and I tried doing some cursive writing. I sucked really badly. It made me feel pathetic and useless. I ordered some kid's cursive writing books and kid's drawing books from Temu, and they arrived a week or two ago. The books are in Chinese, so I can't understand anything, but the cursive part is in English, and drawing is universal, so I didn't need to read the Chinese parts anyway. It was so hard. It's hard to even write down a single sentence. It might take me like 10 minutes to go through a sentence, and even then I'd suck.
I can type over 100 words in a single minute today, on average. At my peak, I've typed at over 190 words per minute, recorded on TypeRacer, my username there is RealTyperBest, and my account is still there, formerly rank 70 or so in the top 100 typists on that site. Yeah I was one of the fastest typists in the entire world at one point, since that site has always been the most competitive typing site where the best go. Today a lot of the people there can now type at my peak speeds, much more easily than I ever did, because as always, people got more competitive and better as time went on. It was something teenage me indulged in for fun, something 30s me feels like would be a waste of time now.
Today I made the same mistake as last night. I got to 1800 calories, and I was fine. This was at around 6 PM. Then for no reason, I ate an additional 600 calories. Why? I felt a little hungry, but I could have held it in. Now I ruined my weight loss and went over my TDEE again. There's nothing I can do about it now, except to try and learn from this mistake. I also did some vegan activism today, as always. I make sure to do a little bit of that every day.
Anyway, I'm very sleepy. Super sleepy. I don't know if I'll go to sleep now, or if I'll read or something.
I read through a bit of that time management book, and I don't even know, it seems to be more about life and mortality than time management. It's called 4000 Weeks: Time Management For Mortals. The gist of it is that we only have 4000 weeks alive and that we shouldn't waste that time on senseless activities, and that the things that matter are relationships, meaningful work, and personal growth, and that we should focus on those rather than other tasks. I'm very sleepy. I don't even know if I agree with the author. I just want to get stuff done. I get I'm a mortal, we are all mortals, but there's only so much I can do.
Anyway I am sleepy, but I'm still not sure if I'm going to sleep yet. I might just continue reading. Very tired.
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