6:46 AM (of Sunday, November 17th 2024)
Today is Saturday, November 16th 2024 and it was a pretty good day today. I didn't waste much time today, not a waste to me anyway. The morning was spent organizing a bunch of stuff, reading, experimenting. I saw a video the other day that wasn't about vision boards, it was about how some 68 year old vegan (he's been vegan for around 40 years, raised at least two kids fully vegan too who are in their 30s now) and how he ate and exercised daily to stay fit, but in that video he mentions vision boards. He literally just mentions vision boards for just a few seconds as he showed his and talked about what they were about, and that made me download a few vision board apps.
If it's for something popular, there is always an app for it, and most of the time there are several apps for it. This wasn't an exception with vision boards, there are several apps for them. I downloaded several of them at the same time to test out which ones were good, and I didn't like any of them, mainly because you had to pay a monthly or yearly subscription to use them. If I tested one that had a one-time fee of like $4, I would have paid that fee. Instead, they have subscriptions for like $3 a month, or $20 a year, stuff like that, which I didn't like and didn't want to pay because I didn't even know if I would be using it every day.
I think the subscription model works fine for apps I would use daily or often enough. Vision boards though, would I really be making a new vision board every day? I didn't think so. So subscribing didn't make any sense.
One of the apps I downloaded though, was all about setting daily intentions, having just one vision board, affirmations, and sound healing. It also had a monthly and yearly subscription, but the yearly subscription wasn't too bad at $10 a year, that's less than $1 a month. It is an app to use daily, because it has this daily intentions part where you fill in 5 things you want to do today. One of the things I filled in on Sunday (tomorrow) was to write this journal in fact. The things I wrote down today (Saturday), were about cleaning my home, organizing, and catching up on some older tasks. I finished 3 tasks on that list, which was awesome.
So anyway, vision boards are just about the things you want to manifest in your life. I put in photos of Asian men with nice bodies and six pack abs and that's all I put in. I don't know what else I want in life right now, I feel like I have everything else and I'm grateful for that. Even though I live in a condo, I don't really dream of living in a mansion or anything like Jake Paul does. I don't really dream of becoming a famous celebrity like him either. Those things would be really cool and nice to have and become, but I pretty much don't care about those things right now. Maybe I'd care about them later, or maybe I won't. Right now I want to be fit and nice looking, is mainly what I want.
I've been sticking to my diet of No Cow bars and edamame, keeping my eating at around 2300 calories per day, and I've been losing weight consistently and predictably. I was 174 pounds this morning (Saturday), I'm even less tomorrow (Sunday), so I think it works. I was 177 pounds again just a few days ago, but now I'm back down to 174, which is awesome. Well, the main way to truly verify if this works, is to apply it for two weeks. If I consistently lose a pound a day, which I have been doing for the past few days, then it works. It's been working for a few days, but that just might be due to my bowels emptying, who knows, so I'll have to do it for two weeks to really see.
The weight loss I've been experiencing might just be due to not eating and having as much food in my bowels. Prior to this, I'd eat at least 2 pounds of vegetables, often more like 5 pounds of vegetables, per day. Even just 5 pounds of vegetables is around 500 calories, which is why I ate so much, it was so filling and heavy with barely any calories. In comparison, a single No Cow bar is 200 calories, and barely weighs anything. I'd eat around 700 calories of rice, which is probably another 1-2 pounds of food because of all the water it absorbs, and another 1-2 pounds of cooked lentils. I'd eat around 2000 calories, which is less than how much I eat now, and yet I'd gain weight every day. It might just due to the heaviness of the food and it being in my bowels? I don't know, so that's why I need to do this No Cow bars and edamame diet for a while to see if it really works.
This intention and vision board app is really targeted at women. It sends out a notification for an affirmation every now and then, and they say things like "I am deserving of love, abundance, and joy" and "I am trusting that the universe keeps me safe and protected" which are very feminine affirmations because they rely on the external for help. The more masculine versions of these might be "I work hard to fulfill my desires, attain an abundance of resources, and be content," and "I am self-reliant and can do everything on my own," because they don't rely on anything external for help.
Anyway, I don't know if I'll ever attain the bodies the people in my vision board have, but it would be nice to have. I feel like I look especially bad with this near bald buzzcut. Hair improves appearance tremendously. With hair, I look like 10 or more years younger. I'm in my 30s and a few months ago at the beach some early 20s kids asked what school / college I attended. I'm 10 years older than you guys bros, I'm not in school anymore. Yet with this haircut buzzcut, I mean, I look sort of the same, but way worse. Having no hair just doesn't look attractive, Britney Spears is an example, but any celebrity works. Take off their hair, and all women look much worse, it's not as bad an effect for men, but it's still pretty bad.
In the evening I did some activism with Eric, Gus, and Mandy. I don't actually remember if that's the nickname I gave her, but whatever. I wrote about her a few months ago, she's vising Puerto Rico again and is here for like a week. Most people had places to go, so they wouldn't stop to have a conversation with us. Two women did though, and they both went vegan on the spot. They tried but ultimately could not justify torturing and killing animals, no matter how much they tried to rationalize or argue for doing it, which is the exact conclusion any sane, reasonable, and objective person would reach. The conversation was all in Spanish, so clips will be uploaded to Eric's Spanish TikTok, where he gets like 5-10k views on average per post there, which is awesome.
I like that both Eric and Gus are both muscular, fit, and are good looking dudes. Both of them have an abundance of muscles and six pack abs, which I covet. In the video the girls were talked about needing protein, and Eric explained how all plants have all amino acids and that we can get all the protein from plants. Eric then lifted the sleeve on one of Gus' arms showing it huge and ripped with him not even flexing, the girls were like "whoaaaaaaaaaaa" and both laughed and giggled.
I've been to the beach with them a few times, been to pools with them, they both can just take off their shirts at any time and just have these ripped looking bodies. They both have hair too, which I don't have much of any longer because I shaved my own head recently, which sucks. I can and do get jealous, but I'm happy for them at the same time. They are both vegan and take me to the gym too, to work out with them. We go 3-4 times per week lifting heavy weights for 1.5 to 2 hours each session. I still have this huge belly and stomach, I am still overweight, I don't look great at all. So yeah, I get how there are women who cry and get insanely jealous of other women who look more beautiful than them, I understand and can sort of relate. I used to not care about this at all, but I notice now how important appearance is. I'd cry about it too if I could.
A feminine affirmation for this might be "the universe blesses me with beauty and elegance." A masculine one might be "I work hard to make myself attractive." Yeah the app still sends me a random affirmation notification every now and then, and it's always something like "the universe is embracing me with joy and love," and it is just so feminine. Anyway, like I said, I'd cry about it if I could, but I can't, so I won't.
I didn't even write about what I did for most of the day today, which was work on a bunch of different tasks throughout the day. It was fun and tiring. I did a lot of experimenting. I have so much to do. It's also weird how I excel and do well in some areas, but I look so uncool and unattractive right now. I'd cry but I don't have anyone to cry to or anything to cry to. Man. It hurts.
Anyway, that was my day today.
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