11:48 PM
This morning I weighed 171.9 pounds. I'm finally under 172 pounds! I wonder how? Yesterday I ate probably 3000 calories. I did do some exercises, I did push ups, pull ups, chin ups, leg raises, a plank, and some walking. None of it enough to cause me to lose weight, but I did somehow.
Last night I was just browsing YouTube, it honestly feels like years since I last went on there. I saw this interview with Dr. Brook Goldner and Thomas Tadlock on Gillian Berry's channel. Thomas Tadlock takes me back. In 2013, when I was still a brand new vegan, I looked up "vegan before and after" photos, and his photo was one of the results that came up. This is a historical easter egg in my life, but in a now famous and historical forum, back in 2013, I made a thread in that forum about eating animals and debated a lot of meat eaters.
I'm not going to mention the name of that forum, but I will specify exact parts of what I posted from what I remember. It is definitely historically significant, if I mention the name of the forum, which I won't, then it would be clear to everyone the significance, I guarantee it. It's a forum barely anyone has heard of, 99.99% of people have never visited it even once, but if the context were understood, and the name is enough to give most of the context, then yeah it would be so obvious to everyone its historical significance. I'll also mention that I made a YouTube account and YouTube videos for the forum topic too, so that's another easter egg that I won't spoil, but the videos are still up and they have tens of thousands of views.
Anyway, I make this thread in that forum, and I think we went up to over 70 pages of me debating meat eaters, before I stopped replying to people. It was one of the top threads for a while, for like a week, or to me it felt like it was more than a month. People back then made the same exact excuses to torture and kill animals today. I think if anyone were to visit that thread now, a lot of the photos would not be showing up anymore, because maybe I used some old forum image hotlinker that's no longer around to post images, and Thomas Tadlock's before and after photo was one of them. I don't remember specifying his name though, I just posted his before / after photo.
I also used a Mike Tyson quote and photo as an example in that debate, he lost 150+ pounds eating a plant based diet and fixed all of his health problems which were serious and killing him. He was so improved and healthy back then, in 2013. After his fight with Jake Paul, which I still haven't seen yet, there was a popular post on X that he posted, saying he was about to die and lost half his blood or something like a month prior to the fight with Jake Paul. He stopped his plant based diet and went back to eating animals who knows when, but in like 2019 or so he was interviewed on Joe Rogan saying he stopped because he wanted to improve his physique and kale made him sick or something, and now a few years later he's apparently having a lot of health issues again.
Who else did I use? Patrik Baboumian, the Williams sisters in tennis, a few other people I don't remember. I posted a DurianRider video of his blood work as a 13 year vegan. In the very first post I posted pictures of veganized meals, like general Tso tofu, vegan sushi, vegan burgers, and others. I was a brand new vegan and that's how I ate basically, I substituted any animal flesh for tofu or another vegan option, and just didn't include any body parts in any of my meals. Literally all the taste and flavor was the same or better, because animal flesh is tasteless without vegan seasonings and ingredients, and no body parts or animal torture and killing involved, and I was like, what is the point to eating animals? I couldn't come up with any justification back then that I could logically and objectively know to be a good reason, and I still can't today, because there isn't any.
Any argument when broken down logically, is destroyed. Crop deaths? Plants feel pain? Animals eat plants, 80%+ of all our crops are animal feed crops to be fed to farm animals, so if one wanted the least crop deaths and plant deaths, as well as the obvious direct animal slaughter deaths, vegan is still the way to go. Protein? Dozens perhaps hundreds of studies already done on the subject, even ones funded by the beef industry couldn't find any difference in muscle or strength gain between the two, and plant protein was actually found to be more protective for diseases and improved health and immunity. There's even twin studies on the subject now, vegan diets improved the health of the twin that ate it.
Even in price, vegan is cheapest. There's already studies on this too, in a study done in 130 countries, vegan/vegetarian was the cheapest and healthiest way to eat. It makes sense since we feed plants to animals, it will always be cheaper to just eat plants instead of growing plants first, feeding to animals, giving them water and shelter, and all the process involved in raising them, ending their life, processing their corpse dealing with the blood, bone, guts,, packaging, and so on.
But personally, there were days this year where I lived on under $4 a day of food. I can go to Wal-Mart, when it's open, and get a pound of lentils for around $2. In the States it's more around $1.30, but with the Jone's Act in Puerto Rico, every import here such as food is like 30% more expensive or something like that, so literally everything here is more expensive. Anyway, let's say a pound of lentils is $2, that's 1400 calories and 120g of protein for $2. Rice is even cheaper. A pound of frozen vegetables is $1, potatoes are cheap, bananas are cheap. Flax seed, chia seeds, are cheap, $3 of those seeds can last a few weeks.
Anyway, yeah, it was an interesting time, 2013. Those were the good days. I was alone, didn't have a job, just dropped out of university, no friends, no followers, no influence, nothing. I did have a website getting over 100k visitors per month that brought me some income, not enough to have covered rent at all though. I was obese too. I was very obese. I think that was when I weighed 250 pounds. I shot up to 230 pounds back in 2020 or 2021, and now I'm 170 pounds again, which I got to back in 2016 and was this weight for a few years until 2020 or so.
There was one friend that visited me on my 21st birthday in 2014. A year back then felt like ages. 2013 to 2014 was an eternity. I did have this contracting job with a company that made handheld controller keyboards. I was typing at over 180 words per minute back then, and I would send emails out to obscure keyboard companies to maybe practice on their keyboard competitively and represent them. There was one located in Virginia, like an hour away from where I was, and I contacted the CEO. Cool guy, we met up at a Starbucks or something, we shook hands, and then he employed me for a while.
I visited his house a few times, it was like an hour or two drive, I met his daughter. Oh yeah, he lived in a mansion. He shared his story with me on how he started up a company that Bloomberg bought for tens of millions. I think he invented Bloomberg terminals, or he made a competitor to it, or something like that. No, he doesn't have a Wikipedia page. I don't even know if it was Bloomberg that bought his company. Good times. I even slept in his home for some nights. He let me sleep in his son's room, and then another time he let me sleep in his daughter's room. They both had already moved out obviously. I never met the son. They're both not active on any social media, I've sent friend requests to both their Facebooks a while back (the guy and his daughter, both I know), years ago, and they still haven't updated it since. It seems like they just vanished.
Good times, good memories. So stressful though. I remember I bicycled from my parent's apartments to George Mason University, that's the school I dropped out from, because I was stressed from driving in my car. It took like 5 hours both ways. I almost died a few times because I rode the bike on the streets and there were no sidewalks, cars would almost hit me off the road. I probably did this bicycling trip more than once. I went to GMU just to visit, because even though I had only been dropped out for a year, I still had nostalgic memories of there for some reason.
Actually, these are the good days. Today. I am pretty much living the dream right now. Both my parents are alive and well, they both eat plant based in a society where it's extremely rare to have any empathy at all for animals, in fact the most common place people see animals is on their plate and fridge. People will deliberately give money to have animals slaughtered for them selfishly, so it's nice to have relatable parents who don't take part in that. My friends are pretty much all vegan now too. I worked out with two of them tonight. I've had two ex-girlfriends. I've had a few women visiting my home. I own my own home. I work on my own business. I'm losing weight and have set new personal bests for all my workouts this year. Isn't this the dream? Aren't these days the good days? Yeah they are.
I'm definitely grateful for everything, but at the same time, I'm frustrated. I feel like I'm not enough. Why can't I set a world record in some calisthenics workout? Why am I so lazy? I noticed that it takes effort to do things, even things you're good at. I'm good at mental math calculations, I am rank 1 in this game called Quick Daily Math (formerly Quick X Maths, they renamed it recently), and my record for doing 30 math problems, was 19 seconds I think. I did 30 math problems in 19 seconds, I had to type them out, press enter. I don't even know how that's physically possible, but I'd do problems like 18 x 17 (306) so quickly, apparently I was able to do these problems in under a second each on average.
Today I was watching this video debunking evolution. I'm open to all ideas and use reason and logic to come to conclusions. I've seen flat earth videos and found them unconvincing and lacking, and they didn't make any sense, I've seen different conspiracy videos too, I've seen arguments from meat eaters on why eat animals and reasoned my way against all of them. So even though I didn't fully believe in this debunking of evolution, the ideas backing their view were true and hard to argue against. Anyway, the video by Freemelon Society cited by this one ongoing research trying to force evolution on e-coli bacteria. I think the study has been conducted for decades, and to this day they have had more than 70,000 generations of bacteria breeding, and still no leap to any new species.
There was math in that video. He said, let's say one human generation is 25 years long. How many years is 70,000 generations? I was just watching the video and wasn't mathematically prepared for this question, and I was like, "meh, I don't know" and didn't even bother calculating it in my head. This is an example of a problem that would take me less than a second to solve. It's 1,750,000 years. This entire example was just to demonstrate that, even though we can be good at something, it still takes effort to do it. A single push up for me is easy, I can do 41 in a row, but it still takes at least some effort to do even one. Doing 25 x 70,000 might be extremely easy to me, and I don't even have to exert any physical energy on it, but it still takes effort.
I don't write everything about my life in my journals. Maybe I should? I sometimes write private journal entries, only visible to me, and are not public. I've been on dates where I didn't even write a single entry for them. There could be so much that happens in my life in a day, and I don't even write about it. I don't know why I skip days, I don't know why I keep certain things private. Like the easter egg for the forum I made a thread in back in 2013, it is historical, but I'm not willing to come out in the open about it.
Everything in my life today is better than it was back in 2013 and 2014. The things that stressed me out back then, don't even have any effect on me today. I'm pretty much living my dream life. Nothing is missing. I have everything I want. Except a girlfriend. Except a fit body. Except a world record in a calisthenic exercise. I have loving parents, friendly friends, good career, the most freedom out of anyone I know. Yet... What's missing? Fame? Influence? Power? I don't know.
I don't think I'm missing anything, and yet life just continues on. It just moves on. Nothing stays static. It's hard to be satisfied with what we have because we always want to improve as time goes on. I am satisfied with what I have, but at the same time I want more, because it's just human nature to feel unsatisfied. There's always problems to solve. I want people to stop hurting and killing animals. Once we get to that point, then I think civilization can truly begin.
Anyway, I wanted to continue my thoughts on that interview with Dr. Goldner and her husband. She had a miraculous story herself, she cured lupus, thought to be incurable, her diagnosis was that she was going to be dead with in 10 years, she was never going to be able to have any children, and so on. She cured her lupus on a plant based diet, it's never come back in 19 years. Her doctors measured her multiple times because the Lupus kept coming back as negative, and it was something unseen and unheard of. Even ChatGPT AI today says it's incurable, but she made this Goodbye Lupus program and has helped many others heal from it too.
in this interview, her husband Thomas Tadlock talked about how he recovered instantly from his workouts after he stopped eating animals. I mean this interview was pretty miraculous, it's one of the best interviews I've ever seen in my life. But yeah, the recovery ability is one I thought everyone had. Apparently it's a rarity? He was a personal trainer and worked out 4 times a week, that was his life, and he said it was normal for him to work out legs one day, and then wait a week to work them out again. He only found out that on a plant based diet, he could work out every day and not feel sore. WOW. I didn't think this was a rare thing.
I never feel sore. Never. Never. I just worked out at the gym tonight, and I know tomorrow I won't feel anything. The next day I won't either. I've been working out for a year and and have only posted about being sore maybe once, and I made sure to emphasize how rare it was and how this was a unique event. Basically I have no soreness ever. I don't even care how much I push myself. There were a few days in a row in October where I did like 300 push ups, 300 leg raises, 20 pull ups, 20 chin ups, 200 squats, or some routine like that per day, and I did that for a few days. I didn't feel sore in any of them, I think, but I did stop because I was feeling tired and lazy.
If there's a reason I don't do something, it's all because of laziness. Even if I have the energy, even if I have the knowledge, even if I have all the tools and everything needed to do something, I still might not do it just because of laziness. Let's say I drink like a coffee. I've probably drank coffee less than 5 times in my entire life. With all that energy, I can do anything like work, study, run, anything. Yet I might still feel too lazy to do it. I'm energized to the max, yet it still takes effort to do things, and I might just not feel like doing it. That's the only reason I don't do something. I can sweep my floors right now, I swept them like two days ago. Why won't I right now? Laziness. It takes no effort to sweep, it takes just a few minutes, it does a lot of good, and yet, lazy. I hate this for me.
I'm pretty tired to continue. Or maybe I'm getting too lazy to continue? Today was pretty normal. Woke up, worked, oh yeah I went to Wal-Mart and bought some vegetables and fruits, and made a smoothie. I went to the gym tonight. While we were on the second floor, there was apparently a fight in the first floor. Everyone had to be kicked out. When I got down to the first floor, the place was empty except for the staff, who was on a call with the police.
I'd write more in detail. My frustrations, lots more stuff, but I"m too sleepy now. I need to finish my smoothie, brush my teeth, drink some water, and then sleep. I'm probably going to browse the Internet for a bit first though. Anyway, that was my day today.
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