4:57 PM (of Friday, January 3rd, 2025)
Today is Thursday, January 2nd, 2025, and it was an alright day today. It ended way too quickly. I uninstalled all of the games on my phone, so you'd think I'd be a lot more productive now, right? Nope. It turns out that what you do is far more important than the activities that you quit. It can help to quit terrible activities, but replacing them with equally terrible activities doesn't improve things. I didn't even watch much anime either, maybe an episode or two total, throughout the whole day. I didn't read much manga or online comics either, probably just a chapter or two, but I still wasn't that productive today either.
Instead, I replaced a lot of this time with watching YouTube videos and browsing Reddit. I worked a little too of course, for maybe a couple of hours, but overall I was unproductive.
In the afternoon, at around 3 PM or so, I decided to go outside for a walk. I downloaded some audiobooks and headed out. The weather was nice and clear, although cold and chilling. It was nice and refreshing just walking outside. I rarely get to experience cold air, and the air was very cold today. I walked by the Potomac river, and enjoyed the view of the wide river and all the trees and nature surrounding it. My parents live within walking distance from the Potomac river, although most of the time I walk through a nearby forest instead.
The audiobook I listened to was about dating. Pretty much every dating audiobook these days are about "red pill" and "alpha male" ideas like that, though I also listened to books that weren't about that. This book discouraged marriage and having kids, and just gave out advice to be with a lot of women instead. The opinions are valid, having kids is extremely expensive and so much responsibility. With the high divorce rates, alimony, and dead bedrooms, it also makes sense for men to not marry. When I was in my early 20s, there was a guy who's age I'm around at now, who always told me to never get married, he himself was divorced and in his early 30s. I got the do not marry advice a lot of times actually. That was basically 10 years ago. Holy shit.
It gave me a lot to think about.
I'm still completely infatuated and in love with Wahl. She doesn't want kids. I actually didn't want kids until my relationship in 2021, when my gf at the time, Aloe, did want kids, and she persuaded me. Maybe Wahl and I can be together and just not have kids, and live our dream lives. That would be nice. I have to work out more to get in shape though, I'm still overweight while she's fit. She messaged me on Christmas again with like 100 new messages or so, which I haven't replied to yet. She was replying to the previous messages I sent, we have these long messages we send each other and sometimes take weeks or months to reply back.
I'm pretty slow in thinking. I basically don't think at all. All my actions and even my mental math calculations, are basically all intuitive or instinctual. It's why I'm able to answer multiplications pretty quickly, I don't voice them out, but I think of the numbers themselves as images and concepts. All my thoughts are images and concepts, no words involved. So I think I'm slow in thinking because I've ruined yesterday and today by not making good decisions with my time and action. Yeah I did quit video games, I didn't even watch much anime, didn't read much manga, but I wasn't any more productive.
There was a lot of Reddit posts that I read. A lot of Medium posts. A lot of random YouTube videos that I watched. I get nothing from them if I don't take any action from what I learned. It's actually more effective for me to take action while not knowing anything, because I would get better results that way than if I knew everything but took no action.
I wanted to remake the Habitica challenges today, but I got distracted and didn't feel like it. I wanted to finish a lot of work tasks I've procrastinated on, but I got distracted and didn't feel like it. I also wanted to work out today, but I got distracted and didn't feel like it. My dad and I actually headed out to go to the community center, but he started coughing a lot in the car, the weather was freezing cold, and so we decided to just turn around and go tomorrow.
Of course I made my bed, brushed my teeth, checked my weight (173.3 pounds), did my brain training, and did vegan activism. For the math problems, my closest rival took around 2 minutes to do today's 3 PEMDAS problems, while it took me less than a minute. She's often faster than me, but I was faster than her by over a minute this time. I actually do take my time thinking about the problem, which is why I am often slower than her. Weird how she took much longer than me this time around though. One of the problems involved a more difficult multiplication problem like 28 * 17 or something, I don't remember but it was something like that, so that's probably why it took her a while. The answer to that is 476 by the way, it took me like 5 seconds maybe to get that, or less.
Anyway, that was my day today. The start of the new year has been okay so far.
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