Day 2 Fasting - 171.2 Pounds

10:24 PM

It's been a little over 49 hours since I last ate anything. Right now I am extremely tired and hungry. I would like to stop now and have some dried passion fruit or dried figs, but the longer I go, the more compelled I am to keep going. After all, I've already made it to 49 hours, why should I stop now and reset my fasting timer? I only have to make it to 336 hours (14 day) and then I can eat again. It's not that much longer, and I'll probably look lean, jacked, and ripped when this is all done. The feeling of accomplishing this will be infinitely more rewarding than the pleasure I'll get from eating anything right now.

I went to Wal-Mart last night, and I went to Marshall's tonight, looking for dates to buy. Both stores used to have a lot of them, now they both had none. None! I couldn't find any dates anywhere. So last night I settled with buying dried blueberries, dried cranberries, and dried cherries. They're sitting in a kitchen cabinet right now. Tonight, I went to Marshall's and I would have bought same dates if I saw any, but instead I just bought some dried passion fruit and dried figs instead.

I love, love, love, love, love, love, love the taste of dried passion fruit. It's so good. It's so exotic. I also love dried mulberries, but they rarely have any. Dried figs are alright. It's been a while since I had any, but from my memory of them, they're just alright and okay. Dates are what I crave the most, but I can't really have any until I'm able to eat again.

I am fasting to lose weight. I've been stuck at hovering around 175 pounds for two months now, so I am taking drastic steps to reduce my weight. It's so weird how I lost 10 pounds seemingly instantly from September to November, and then I hovered around 175 pounds since then without any progress. From day to day I might go from 173 pounds to 174 pounds, to 173 pounds again, to 174, to 175, and so on, just hovering near that weight. My peak was at 178 pounds on January 9th, when I reached that, I was like, okay I'm doing something wrong, and heavily adjusted my eating, and today I'm 171.2 pounds which is amazing.

I have to last 14 days if I want to see some really amazing results. There will be some amazing results at the 7 day checkpoint too, but that will only be halfway through. I know there are drastic changes in the 7 day mark, because I've done this twice already. Both times, when I reached the 7 day checkpoint, I was so happy with the results from my improved appearance that I wanted to stop, yet the results were magnitudes better 14 days in.

So I have to keep going. Keep going. This sucks because I am only 2 days in, and I have 12 days left to go. I've barely scratched the surface, only being 16.67% of the way done. If I make it to tomorrow though, I would be 25% of the way done. There is an 8.34% increase completion per day. Tomorrow, I will be 1/4th of the way done. That means I just have to repeat my past 3 days 3 more times and then I'll be done. I can't wait for that.

Despite how hungry I am, I still don't crave to eat any corpses or body parts. There are chickens that I see every now and then walking outside in Puerto Rico, I didn't see any today because I just didn't go outside except at night time, but I still don't desire to kill or eat any of them. People are kind of psychotic that they would kill and murder these innocent creatures. I grew up with farm animals myself, some of my relatives kept chickens and pigs, even cows, they have their own lives and emotions that I would see in their faces, and even growing up as a meat eater I never wanted to hurt and kill any of them.

I do crave dried fruits to eat though, or any sweet foods, fruits too. I actually crave fruits, except I didn't buy any because they might spoil before the 14 days are done, so I bought a bunch of dried fruits and I do crave them. Dried passion fruit is a delicacy that few people would have because they're kind of pricey (cheaper than body parts though). I remember when I used to eat body parts that my palette would be pretty limited too, to just processed foods mainly. Pizza, burgers, fried birds, not much fruits and vegetables, my taste palette didn't like them too much.

All flesh foods are processed foods, unless eaten directly from a rotting animal corpse, every body part has been processed severely. In a way too, dried fruits have been processed, mainly just dried, no injections of antibiotics and other drugs nor brine, no heavy cleaning to remove feces and blood and guts, nor cutting to make it look nothing like its regular form (an animal), no chemical coloring to make it look red instead of brown and rotting. All this stuff regularly happens to animal corpses served to them and people don't bat an eye. It's weird how people will say "why do you make plants look like meat" as if the disc shaped burgers or cucumber shaped hot dogs or breading covered bird parts resemble anything close to their original form.

11:11 PM

I don't know how I can fast any longer though to be honest. I'm feeling so hungry and tired. From experience too, 3 days in is when the hunger goes away. So I just have to make it to 3 days. But it's so hard. It's so hard to even make it to 48 hours. I don't know how there are people doing this so easily.

Even though I've been drinking a lot of water, my pee color has been dark yellow to orange this whole time. My body is burning fat that's been on my body for years, perhaps decades, and is getting rid of all the bio-accumulation of toxins and other materials within them.

The lowest weight I've ever gotten to in the past 15 years, is probably 170 pounds, that was in 2016/2017. I never went lower than that, even as a freshman in high school back in 2008/2009, I was probably 180 to 190 pounds. I hovered around the 171 pound range the entire time in 2016/2017 though. I think 170 pounds is a pretty strong barrier for me, so there will be a lot of toxins stored in my fat that will be detoxed away.

Fitness, appearance, and health, really weren't things I paid much care or attention to until 2020. Even when I lost the weight in 2016/2017, that was mostly luck. I ate a high starch plant-based diet following Dr. McDougall, and it worked. I lost so much weight. But I didn't do any strength exercises, I ate for around $3 a day of food a day back then, mainly rice and beans, and it was so delicious. I can live that lifestyle today again, and maybe I might go back to that life again. For now though, I have to lose this weight and last another 12 days.

In 2019/2020, I became obese again due to the pandemic. I just stopped caring about calories in and calories out, and ate to my heart's content back then. I gained roughly 60-70 pounds in the span of a few months, and I've lost it all now. It took me years to lose the weight, but I've lost all that weight now and I'm back to my healthiest 2016-2018 weight levels. I forgot I was also mainly around this weight even back in 2018, but I did drop to this weight range in 2016/2017.

If I can make it to the 160s weight range, and even 150s weight range, I would have accomplished something the past versions of me have never accomplished ever. Despite all my personal accomplishments, losing weight was something I never did that well. Even the past 2 months, I've been tracking my calories every day, exercising every day, trying to lose weight every day, and I stalled. I stalled at around 175 pounds. Sure, I would eat 4000-5000 calories some days, and that's why I never lost any weight, I understand that, but that's part of me putting in all my effort and still failing.

I'll lose roughly 1 pound per day, so if I can make it two more days, I should be below 170 pounds for the first time in my entire adult life. If I can make it to the 150s, I would be lighter than myself in middle school. I didn't really get on the scale back in middle school, but I'm sure I was already over 160 pounds back then.

Anyway, what a day. I hope I fast throughout the whole day tomorrow too.