Re-Establishing Fitness

1:06 AM (of Monday, February 3rd, 2025)

Today is Sunday, February 2nd, 2025 and I had a pretty hectic day today. It was all over the place. At night time until 5 AM or so, I worked on some random tasks, and would eat a bunch. I wasn't tracking my calories, but I probably ate over 2000 calories during this time period. I was also watching some videos here and there, it was a relaxing day that I initially didn't take very seriously.

At around 5:20 AM, I would drive to the lineal park, and would arrive at around 5:50 AM or so. It takes a while to drive there, even with the empty roads. When I arrived there, I was surprised that there were already quite a few cars parked. Anyway, I had this plan of walking for 10 minutes and warming up, and then jogging for 30 minutes, and then doing some mixed sprint runs for 5-10 minutes, and then walking back.

I did my best to implement that plan, but I was hugely out of shape. Surprisingly, and this is very surprising, there were so many people running in the park this morning. It was a Sunday at 6 AM, and I've been to the park this early a bunch of times before on Sunday, there's usually not so many people there. Today, so many people were jogging. I got passed by several people.

Yeah, my fitness was pretty bad. I was running at an 11 minute mile pace, which is pretty slow. I also couldn't sprint much yet either. I think my glycogen stores are still getting filled in, and it takes a few days for that to happen. I already expected this anyway, so today was basically just a warm-up. I plan on running daily now to improve my fitness and endurance.

At home, I worked for a little, and then mostly just let the time go by. I don't even remember what I did in the morning, except eat a lot again. Yikes. I cooked up some diced cauliflower and a bunch of vegetables this time, and ate that along with some vegan meats. For some reason I didn't add any rice or lentils which I normally would, but I think that's because I already realized I had been eating so much food and tried to limit my calories a little.

Another surprising thing was that fully clothed and with a stomach full of food and liquids, I weighed 162 pounds. I actually thought eating so much food and feeling so extremely full, I'd weigh 167 again, but nope, not even close. With an empty stomach, I think I'm still under 160 pounds.

I actually wanted to run a bunch more throughout the day, but it was so sunny out, and also the closest park to me was closed. I drove there to confirm, it is closed on Sundays, which is why I went to the lineal park earlier in the morning, even though it's a 30 minute drive away. I wasn't going to the lineal park again now though, due to the sun and the traffic. When people start going out on Sundays at around noon, traffic starts to get really bad, before then the roads are empty. Traffic is pretty terrible every day except early in the morning and late at night, after 9 PM. There's around 2 million people that live in this single city where I live.

While on the drive back from the calisthenics park, since I drove there to confirm it was closed, Eric called me and asked if I wanted to do vegan activism today. I said sure, and he said to meet at his place at around 4 AM. I went back home, and at around 1 PM, I started feeling extremely sleepy, so I texted him that I'd set an alarm for 3:00 PM and try to wake up. I had been awake since 5 PM yesterday (Saturday), so my sleep schedule was completely messed up.

When I woke up, I was extremely groggy and irritable. I took a shower and changed clothes, got out the door and was heading to Eric's place. Anyway, he texted me and I just got pissed. I decided to not go. I'm annoyed I have to drive to this guy's place, and all I would do is film him. What's the point? What do I get from it? I don't get paid or anything, I waste 30 minutes of my time driving there, gas, and waste both again on the drive back. He brought other people along with him there too, so I didn't even need to be there. Since there's no benefit to me, I decided to not go from now on, though I didn't tell him that yet. I just told him I felt groggy in the car and went back home.

I love that he's doing activism, and he called me and asked me to watch. I watched a bit of his activism livestream and that was fun chatting with people and everything. I just get absolutely nothing for going except wasting my own time. I don't like his new attitude either. He lives at this hostel for free, gets paid to live there actually since he now manages the place for his employer, and he has no expenses. I think he became pretty arrogant with this and said he was never going to be spending any money ever again, and even refuses to drive because it costs gas. So I am supposed to drive, use up my valuable time, and do work for him for free? Yeah, I was cranky and groggy, very irritable, and these thoughts are what pissed me off, and I decided not to go.

I enjoy doing the activism too, it's for a great cause for the most abused creatures on the planet, animals that we needlessly torture, kill, and eat. There's absolutely no justifiable reason at all to do so either.

As someone that has mandatory car, electricity, phone, Internet, water bills, it's pretty arrogant boasting about not having to pay any of this. I also have to pay my parent's mortgage, because they can't support themselves. My expenses are pretty large too. Things are not fair, but I just have to make do with what I have and my situation. I'll explain later why I don't want to drive there just to do activism anymore at some point, even though it's for a great cause and everything.

At around 5 PM, I started doing some exercises again, the pull ups, chin ups, push ups, etc. and they were all hard. They were all difficult, doing them was as hard as before. Anyway, I guess I have to work on re-establishing my fitness.

At around 6 PM, I went to sleep, and I fell asleep until around 11:50 PM, I've been awake since. The new plan is to stay awake until 9 PM tomorrow to hopefully reset my sleep clock.