Learned From Mistakes

7:30 AM (of Tuesday, February 18th, 2025)

Today is Monday, February 17th, 2025, and I had a great day today. Yesterday (Sunday), I made a lot of mistakes which I reflected upon in my journal entry, and today I didn't make them again.

I added these tasks to my dailies: No Video Games, No Anime, No Manga, No Porn, No Screens in Bedroom. I fulfilled them all today, and my day was so much better because of that. I also added "Kept Diet Under 2500 Calories" which I technically did not fulfill, but I checked it off anyway. I ate around 3000 calories today, which is over 2500 calories, because I just couldn't help myself. I tried though, which is why I still checked it off. And because of my workouts and activity throughout the day, I didn't gain any weight from this the next day.

Every day I try to improve as a person, little by little. I mean comparing myself to just a year ago, arguably I haven't changed much or at all. I did have new experiences, I went with Wahl to Iceland, I went with Mary to Vieques, I visited Chicago and Philadelphia with my parents, I completed a lot of different tasks and items for work. I probably gained 500 new followers in the past year, have had probably millions of views on my posts, if not that much then at least hundreds of thousands of views on my posts.

My overall net worth though has been unchanged. My relationship status is unchanged. My fitness is also arguably unchanged, or not changed by much anyway. I did lose a lot of weight, that is true, probably 15-20 pounds compared to this same time last year. However, it's not as if I'm doing more push-ups, chin-ups, pull-ups, etc. than compared to this same time last year. I'm probably doing about the same. My home is completely unchanged, all the furniture and everything is where they have been for the past year. My garden is newly furnished though, no weeds can grow there now.

It can be depressing thinking about how little my life has changed in the past year. I feel like I'm treading water, especially with my net worth, because my expenses are quite high due to taking care of my parents, their mortgage, traveling, and other financial responsibilities. I can obviously offset my expenses if I earn more, and that just means working harder, possibly finding new clients, working on new projects, and getting new users and so on. That's another area of life I can improve on.

10:54 AM (of Tuesday, February 18th, 2025)

I make a lot of mistakes too. Sometimes I make them the same day after "learning lessons" about that mistake. For how many years have I been trying to give up anime, video games, porn, etc? Well, not really porn, but anime, video games, and manga. I quit them for months or years at a time, but then I go back to them, and I hate it. Today I made daily check-off items that are tied to these vices, if I don't do them, then I can check off that I didn't do them. This keeps me accountable.

But yeah, I feel like today was much better than yesterday. I didn't watch any anime at all, no video games at all, no manga either. I also didn't bring any screens into my bedroom. I did all of my brain training, I made some vegan posts, I did all of my workouts. Today was great, largely the same as yesterday, except I didn't succumb to any of my vices.