Fasting Day 2 of 4, face and body photos

7:37 PM

I think I look like a hot dude. There's photos of me in this entry, would you agree? Am I arrogant to say that? I don't know how I look or anything to be honest, I'm not a girl, but like I posted in a previous entry, even when I was overweight/obese, girls have asked me out, so I probably look alright? I do want to become a hot guy though.

There's this face rating app I downloaded called FaceScore, and it rated me a 91 out of 100. That's a 9/10. Wow. It gave me a D for my eyes though, and it's true, my eyes are kind of fucked up, they are slightly different sizes, and have always been. Both my eyes are different shapes and sizes. It's not noticeable at all unless you really compare them, but my eyes are different from each other, that's why it gave me a D score for that.

It says I look like Chloe Grace Moretz. I looked her up, and she has a jawline despite being overweight. That's insane. Yeah, I have watched enough black pill content to know what to look for in a face, some basics anyway. I know what canthal tilt means, I only found out today. It's hard to explain though, it's basically whether or not the outer end of your eye is higher than the inner end next to your nose. It's hard to even look for, you have to really observe their eyes and probably even draw lines to gauge it properly. I have a positive canthal tilt, which is supposed to be attractive.

Black pillers make a big deal out of the canthal tilt, out of any facial feature really, the jawline too. There's terms I don't even remember now describing so many facial features. Even though I don't remember their names, I know what to look for. There's the fat underneath the chin for example, which I have some of, and to be ideal you have to have no fat under your chin, this is something under our control at least. Most of the other facial features to look for are not under our control, unless through surgery. I wouldn't want to do any cosmetic surgeries though, not even for my eyes, as they are all risky and could leave you uglier or deformed, as other people have experienced.

It would be nice to be a hot guy for once and get some attention. That would be so cool. That's why I'm fasting, so I can get my body fat % down and to potentially become an attractive guy. I know I'm not that attractive yet right now, but I think there's potential. We don't know what we truly will look like until we get our body fat % down to either 10% or even the single digits, but it's hard to get to the single digits, it's hard enough to get to 10% too.

9:06 PM

I constantly feel like giving up and just eating again. Constantly. I am tired and hungry, time is going by so slowly. Oh yeah, that's another thing with fasting, is that time goes by extremely slowly. An hour feel like 10 hours, a minute feels like 10 minutes, I'm not even joking. When we're not fasting, time feels normal or time even feels like it's going by extremely fast, a day can go by in an instant when we're not fasting. A day does not go by in an instant when we're fasting, a day takes an eternity to go by instead.

It's because we want time to go by faster that it goes by slower. I'm currently around 47 hours into my fast, and it took forever to get here. It took forever. I mean I think the first 24 hours weren't that bad, but it's pretty bad now. Time is almost at a standstill.

I worked throughout the whole day today and got some decent work done. Time went by quickly while I was working. I think wonk is such a good thing because it can cause time to go by in an instant, because we're not bored, and we're actually doing things.

I could watch some anime or read some manga or whatever since I'm bored, and I made an exception to allow these things while fasting. I have work I have to do too, personal tasks and business tasks, but I am way too tired and fatigued for that, though it's not like I would work on those things even if I was full of energy. I need to force myself to work on those tasks at some point. I need to attain the identity of someone who works hard and doesn't procrastinate, only then can I actually fulfill these tasks more easily.

I'm so tired and hungry. Time to sleep or just browse the Internet until I feel tired enough to sleep.