Worked Mainly, How I Met A2

10:09 PM

Am I wasting my days? I didn't do much today except work and browse the Internet and social media. I did chat with an old friend as well, A2. He called me up and we talked for a couple of hours, catching up on everything. A2 used to be my best friend back in middle school and high school, now he lives in Colombia living the life he wants to live. He tells me that he spends $1 on Ubers and that prostitution is legal and popular in Colombia.

We met back in middle school. He remembers how we met better than I do. I was a very social kid and I would go up to random people and introduce myself. My birthday is in September, so I was basically one of the oldest kids in my grade, there were only a handful of people older than me. In elementary school, I think I was the oldest kid in my grade, for all the grades that I attended, I don't know if anyone was older.

Anyway, I just mention my age because I was 13 at the time, and that was also when I joined YouTube in 2006, and I uploaded my first videos that got hundreds of thousands of views on my channel Pwnwner. I'm just mentioning that because that's honestly one of my proudest memories and accomplishments in my life. From those videos I became an admin of a private World of Warcraft server, I played with teenagers and people in their late 20s, people that were married or had girlfriends. I received hundreds of emails a day, I'm not joking, and it was pretty life changing for a 13 year old kid.

I spoke to adults as if we were the same age. I was in 7th grade and was chatting with people online about managing servers and moderating the game and about life topics as well. They treated me like I was their equal, even though I hadn't even hit puberty yet and had this entire world of so much unknown to me still yet to come. I had no idea what high school would be like, I had no idea what driving a car would be like, or having a girlfriend, or any life experience. Cell phones also weren't a thing at the time, the iPhone wouldn't come out until I was in 8th grade.

Oh yeah, I learned video recording and editing and all of that on my own. I had already made websites since I was in 3rd grade, I had learned basically all of the popular software at the time like Photoshop, Flash, Dreamweaver, Game Maker, etc. in elementary school, all on my own. I literally have a website archived on the Wayback Machine, that I made in 2004-2005. Some 10-12 year old made that site, and it's archived by the Wayback Time Machine. Isn't that fucking interesting? So yeah, learning video editing was a piece of cake. There were no tutorials or anything back then, YouTube was literally brand new, I was probably one of the top 10,000 creators on YouTube, maybe within the top 5,000 if I'm pushing it, I had like 500k+ views at the time as a 13 year old.

Honestly it surprised me that in high school and in college, people had no idea how to use much software. I had literally learned them on my own as a kid, and in high school in 12th grade, I remember hanging out with popular people and someone had an idea and asked "does anyone know how to edit videos?" and people would suggest names, but no one else in the group knew. I honestly thought it was common knowledge. In college, people had no experience making any software or game or website or anything. I was like, what?! I made websites since elementary school, and people here had never even done anything close...?!

But anyway. How I met A2. He says we met at the after school bus stop in middle school. I just randomly came up to him and introduced myself, and asked if I could come over that same day. He said sure, and I visited, then we became best friends after that. We lived just one neighborhood away from each other, and would visit each other, and play games, run around, and stuff.

Growing up as a kid, everyone in my neighborhood played outside. We rode scooters, bikes, played soccer, basketball, tag, different sports outside. It was the whole neighborhood too. I lived in a large and open apartment complex with lots of amenities for kids. At least 20-30 kids all played around in this neighborhood, and we all knew each other, we all played with toys and games with each other. Yu-Gi-Oh was popular at some point, and we would trade cards or climb up buildings and give them away for free, and people would run around below grabbing some. We ran around the neighborhood, visiting each other's houses, playing different video games, running up and down the apartment buildings, it was a wild childhood.

There was no social media at the time, so we didn't take pictures of us having fun or anything. We would adventure crawling into sewer canals looking for a pet snake. We would go into some random neighborhood and play soccer there. Everyone was so friendly. You could just walk outside and see some kids playing some games like Dynasty Warriors roleplaying with sticks as spears and swords, and you could just join in. For snow ball fights we would have neighborhood snowball fights.

Returning home from a neighborhood snow ball fight, I had a bunch of snow go into my boot one day, and I had to crawl back home. I couldn't walk. No one helped me. I was like 9 years old maybe, and a bunch of adults passed by as I literally crawled trying to get back home, and no one helped me. I even called out to this one guy and asked him to help me out, and he just looked at me and walked by. When I got back home, I remember my feet were extremely red and swollen, maybe even grayish or blackish, though I don't really remember.

There were these vending machines, and I remember we used to try and hack it from things we learned online. Using a certain number combination, you could access the secret menu, though you couldn't get any free drinks this way, you could just move around the secret menu and not really do much else. My friends and I would sometimes venture out, going into way farther neighborhoods. I remember my friend's bike got stolen right in front of us, some older kids came by and asked, "yo can we see your bike" and then they just took it and went off.

There were swings and slides, and other playground rides, though we didn't use them that much. We would do scooter tricks and bicycle tricks, going up and down this hill. Things became really niche when I got into World of Wacraft in 2004, yeah it came out in 2004. I was in 5th grade. I gave one of my friends the password to my account, and he would play online. He was cool, a very trustworthy friend. I also played Runescape at some point. I had a bunch of rare items too, like the green halloween mask, I played the first version of Runescape, whatever that's called now, during the era of party hats (phats) and halloween masks, scythes, and other items only from that era. I beat every single free quest and surpassed my friend Raven177 who got me into it.

Anyway these memories are all over the place. I also played Diablo 2, and that's where I learned about the human reproductive system. I was 11, and chat with teenagers. Maybe I shouldn't go into too much detail, but yeah, those were interesting times. MySpace was the the place. I was a loser kid, obese, with glasses, even though I had 500k views on YouTube and was super popular online, I wasn't popular with the people in my classes, not with the girls anyway, at least not the girls I was into anyway. I was popular with the boys, and there were some girls that had a crush on me.

Yeah, in 8th grade, I learned about preening and choosing signals. Maybe I was just a delusional kid, but I literally saw it everywhere. I mean I was friends with everyone too. I got straight A's, literally straight A's, nothing lower than an A in any class throughout the entire year, and I was somewhat popular in my classes. I hung out with friends after school, visited their houses, they visited mine, everyone knew me in every class. I think everyone knew each other in every class. But yeah, in 7th grade I was basically a loser, and in 8th grade I became more popular as my social skills improved.

Social media wasn't a thing. No one was chronically online. Everyone talked to everyone. So I think everyone had decent social skills.

So I just recently did a "deep dive" into the black pill, and I know all the terminology and everything they talk about. I learned that basically all of them are younger than me, much younger than me. It's interesting that they make these "advice" videos about life, career, mistakes they made, stuff like that, and I watch and listen to them thinking they have so much wisdom and knowledge, only for me to find out they're all so much younger than me. Not to say that young guys don't have much wisdom, but their advice is basically to just give up on life, and I'm not even joking on that.

The guy Rehab Room, I think he's been making videos since 2018, I've seen all of his videos by the way, and he speaks with great wisdom. From listening to one of his videos today, I found out he's not even in his 30s yet. Wtf. So he started his "black pill incel" videos when he was in his early 20s? I was watching a bit of his "how to unloser yourself in your 30s" and his advice is basically that if you are still a loser by the time you hit 30, as in, no accomplishments, virgin, no girlfriend, kissless, no career, no savings, etc, then to just give up on life basically. It's pretty bad advice. I would suggest to keep trying your best.

I am so sleepy by the way. When I say that I wish I could type more but I can't, it's literally because I'm about to pass out.

Yeah, compared to my young, not much is happening to my life anymore. Where are the adventures and fun? The meeting up with random people and playing games or anything with them? I haven't experienced that in a while.

Anyway, so tired. I would keep writing, but again, so tired.

Anyway, that was my day today.