Started Reading a New Story

11:04 PM

Last night I started on a new manhwa which I've read up to the latest chapter. It's called "The Player Hides His Past" and I really enjoyed it. The main character who is now 27, created and role-played as a fictional character in a video game when he was 15, crafting his background, abilities, and personality. 12 years later, the video game merges with reality, and everyone who's played and created a character, transforms into the character they created. Monsters and dungeons called Ruptures, also show up in the real world, and it's up to the transformed people, or players or explorers as they're called, to clear the dungeons before a "break" occurs and the monsters start flooding out of them.

What I like about this story and what got me hooked, was the main character's fictional character that he created. The fictional character he made up is perfect. The man is disciplined, hardworking, mentally strong, and a genius. This character cleans, exercises, and always shows toughness even when weak. I love that. Even when he has 1 HP or 1 MP left and is about to die, this character is great at bluffing and will pretend like he's unscathed and can keep going, which intimidates everyone he goes up against.

The main character's body gets taken over by this fictional character, but the main character still has some consciousness and can react to what his fictional does in his body. The main character doesn't really do anything except make commentary since his physical body has been taken over and the only thing that exists is his consciousness. The main character is mainly there for humor. For example when his fictional character has 1 HP and bluffs about being able to keep on going, the main character is frantically trying to get the fictional character to give up. The fictional character is unwavering and perfect throughout though, never giving up, never showing any worried expression.

I like to take a lesson from this manhwa, and it's that we can take up a role of a fictional character we create. We can make up a character, and allow it to "take over our bodies", just like how the main character has his body taken over. This can be somewhat similar to NLP or neurolingeustic programming. It's this concept I read about when I was 16. It was helpful in my life at the time, and I think it can still be helpful today. Basically, if other people can be confident, the only difference between you and them are the mindset. There is really nothing stopping you from behaving like them, other than your own thinking.

Of course there can be some limitations to this. You can act as confident as someone beautiful, and you may not get the same results they get in seducing others, but it's better than you not acting confident. Using NLP is how I mastered driving in a few driving sessions basically, like I said I learned it when I was 16. I felt like I became a master pretty early on, I drove in heavy snow weather, on highways, and so on. Wow. Actually, what I'm surprised by is that a few years later, I would be driving on my own, driving through multiple states, doing lots of exploring, visiting people, and even driving to work. A lot of things can happen in just a few years. Wow.

I was just reminiscing on the transition from when I was 16 to 19. I can't believe so much transpired during that time period, it's ridiculous, utter insanity. I don't like getting older, I don't like having less options. But basically, all I did today was read this manga, and I thoroughly enjoyed it.

My parents and I also went shopping at Aldi's and Wal-Mart. At Wal-Mart, the receipt checker asked my dad if I was his son, when my dad said yeah, the receipt checker looked at my face and said "good!" I think that was a compliment. I think I'm good looking, just my opinion anyway. I think I look really good actually. I feel great too. Though, I am still single, and I'm pretty much getting ghosted constantly by everyone. No one has seen my in my new weight and BMI though, I barely have any photos in my new weight too. All of my profile photos, dating photos, were from when I was overweight. I still think I have a long way to go, another 20 pounds of weight loss into the low 140s, I was 158.5 pounds this morning.

Today I think I ate a lot. We'll see if I gain any weight or not.

Anyway, that was my day today.