Traveled to DC

11:06 PM

I have an uncle staying with my parents and I for around 10 days, he arrived yesterday and we picked him up from the airport. We drove around for a bit giving him a tour of the area before going home. My parents and I decided last week to give him my room, while I would sleep on the floor of my parent's room, so my parents also cleaned up my room a bit before his arrival yesterday.

Today we went to Washington D.C., pretty much one of the only things to do in the area. It's only around an hour away from my parent's home and this is my second time going there this year. We went to the usual places, the White House, the Washington Memorial, the Lincoln Memorial Reflecting Pool, and walked around a bunch, taking more than 10k steps in the city. We ate at a vegan restaurant as well.

There's really not much to do in the area other than going to D.C. I think. My cousins and I had a reunion a few months ago, and the main thing we did was basically go to D.C. and hang out at one of my cousin's homes. I also have some friends in the area who I haven't hung out with in a while, and other than going to restaurants and hanging out for a bit, there's really not much to do here. In Puerto Rico at least, there's going to the beach, swimming, surfing, hiking, exploring, or going to the parks and running or cycling. I guess bicycling and running are also available here, but the other activities require a long drive.

Anyway, today was pretty fun. We took around 15k steps overall today, visiting a bunch of places in D.C. We even encountered Trump's presidential motorcade, at least that's what me and all the other spectators around us speculated. After hearing all the sirens and police motorcycles and police vehicles driving by, a bunch of black, I think Cadillac, SUVs drove by, surrounded by more police vehicles. I thought it had to be Trump, because there was like 10 black SUVs there, I could hear the conversations around us too and people were saying that was Trump.

I'm getting kind of lonely and worried about my overall life though. Now being in my 30s, although I never looked great to begin with, my looks have started to obviously fade. It was sped up dramatically by minoxidil damage, and I'm pretty much recovered from there, other than my face skin thinning and creasing more easily, and I'm not sure what the resolution to this is. I asked ChatGPT to do a deep search to find people who experienced similar issues, and it did, so other people have experienced the same thing, but I couldn't find any resolutions or updates on their situation. ChatGPT tells me the issue is solvable though, it will just take months because that's how long it takes for my collagen to rebuild.

Tomorrow I'm planning on seeing Mary again, we contacted each other recently and she invited me to dinner tomorrow at a vegan restaurant. Hopefully it works out well. I can ask her if she's seeing anyone, and if she wants to date again. I'm not sure if we will get together again, most likely not, I don't think she is romantically interested in me anymore, but I'm not sure. She wished me Happy Valentine's Day this year, she randomly video calls me every now and then, and she invites me to events, and I think she flirts with me sometimes but I'm not sure, she sends some pictures of her travels and stuff.

I think Wahl is definitely not interested in me at all, anymore, if she ever was. She hasn't reached out to me in several months. I think I'm just going to drop thinking about her and my pursuit of her, and just move on.

My plan is to just work out and get fit, and if my face continues to sag and crease so much even after 6 months of me reaching my dream weight and dream body, and that this is the reason I'm not satisfied with my appearance, I think I'm just going to get a face lift. I wouldn't know what else to do. People opt for fillers or botox and things, but those are temporary solutions not without complications, and they need to be redone again every 6 months or so. A facelift I view as more of a facial reset, and it lasts indefinitely, until natural aging makes the person look old again.

But yeah, I still haven't seen any examples of a ripped unattractive person. I don't think a thing exists.

I'm very insecure about everything, perhaps I have always been.

After failing my recent World Literature course, I wanted to retake it, but I couldn't see it in the list of courses I could sign for this term. So instead, I'm retaking two other courses that I got a D in. I should be able to get an A in them, and if so, this would boost my GPA up substantially. Getting an F barely nudged my GPA, it only reduced it by 0.06, which I barely noticed, I actually thought it would have much more of an impact than that.

Even though I am insecure, I am kind of optimistic too, perhaps I have always been.

Anyway, that was my day today.