Getting Things Done

10:23 PM

Whew. As of a few days ago, I'm back in Puerto Rico. I have been extremely busy since then getting my life back on track. Life is pretty good overall, but making mistakes and taking a few steps back, makes it worse. I'm trying now to be productive and improve every day. I'm not sure how or why I fell off track for such a long time, but I'm getting back in the groove of things yet again.

Yesterday I started my daily exercises again. I'm not sure how I was able to do 200+ push ups a day around 8-10 months ago, because I am having a hard time doing even 50 a day now. Not only was I doing 200 push ups a day back then, but also 20 pull-ups, 20 chin ups, 200 squats, 500 leg raises, 500 crunches, etc, some crazy numbers like that, per day.

Maybe I am weaker now, or maybe I am more deliberate in my movements now, because I am going slower when doing the same workouts, and it's quite difficult doing the same workouts. I'm also only doing 2 pull-ups and 2 chin-ups at a time, and it's quite hard to do that too. If I really tried for it, I could probably do 12 in a row of both, just once, but I am doing these movements extremely slowly and more deliberately now, focusing on a mind-muscle connection.

Also, 10 push-ups is pretty hard for me to do now. I'm not even sure I can do 20 in a row anymore, let alone 42 or so which was the most I've ever done in a row, which was a few months ago. I am going very slowly on my push ups, so that might be why I struggle to do only 10 now. It could also be that fasting a bunch of times ruined my strength a bit, and of course, not working out for months also ruined my strength and muscles a bit.

I no longer think fasting is great for weight loss, once you reach a certain weight. If you are obese, fasting is great for weight loss, but when you are normal BMI, it shouldn't be done anymore, it's harmed me more than helped me when I fasted for 5 days last time. So I'm never going to be fasting again.

Another thing that I did badly on, was that I had a date last night. It just didn't go well. I didn't like her that much either, but still, this just showed me that there's so much for me to work on and improve upon.

Every day that I'm getting older, it just seems like everything I do is to just maintain and not necessarily to improve. I think it's why people who go to the gym and already have built bodies, still go to the gym, mainly to maintain, not necessarily to improve. People who go to work and do work, mainly maintain, not necessarily improve. I'm trying to improve, but it seems like it's actually quite a difficult thing to do, there's a lot of steps back, and there's a lot of obstacles and distractions, and every day unrelated tasks.

I have to clean my home every day. My parents aren't around to do all the chores and everything in my home in PR, so I have to do them myself. I sweep every day, I wash the dishes every day, I clean the kitchen every day. Then every now and then, I have to laundry my clothes, I have to put away my clothes, I have to laundry the bed sheet and pillow sheets, I have to maintain my backyard. Then I also have to do shopping for food, and I have to put away all my things. My place is quite a mess, but it's not as messy as other people's places. I have bills to pay, a lot of bills to pay. I have work to do as well, and so much work to do.

Along with all that, I have to exercise and maintain and improve my fitness. It really is so much. I have a facial routine now too. Along with brushing my teeth and flossing in the morning and night time, I also have a facial routine I have to do in order to maintain and improve my facial appearance.

There's so much to do every day, and I am just alone in doing it all. I'm not sure how other people are able to survive so well and so easily. They have significantly less tasks and worries than me, I think. The person I went out on a date with last night, said she doesn't pay any rent. Good for her. My ex-gf also doesn't. And I know other friends who don't either or pay very little. Wow. Good for them. I have to pay my parent's mortgage every month. I have car payments too, and a bunch of bills.

Still, I should be grateful for what I do have and where my life currently is. If my life has declined a little, it's due to my actions and choices, making one bad decision at a time eventually adds up. Yesterday and today, I tried to get my life back in order, and I'm slowly doing that. There's still a long way to go, but I'm making progress and taking forward steps instead of backwards steps now.

Writing this entry is part of that improvement plan. I have to reflect on my daily life and where it is, and how to improve. These tasks are good. Daily maintenance is just a thing we all have to go through.

If I can't sleep soon, I will work on cleaning up my home a bit more.

Anyway, that was my day today.