I am going to be roommates with my childhood friend, she is buying a house in the city I live in now, can you freaking believe that? AND I have a job interview next week which I know I am going to ace.
And me and her are pretty compatible, she has pets too and is thinking about opening a pet daycare and I could work there the days I am not working at my other job. I only have like 400 left in debt, so once I pay that off I can save up for a car and you know having a car opens up a LOT of flexibility with work, social, shopping, groceries, and so much more.
Having a car is just nice, and my aunt said she would help me get comfortable driving again and idk re-teach me. I have a valid licence but haven't driven in five years. I found a good phone to buy and order when I get paid this August and I already have the SIM card for my new phone ready to set up, the phone Is unlocked so bye bye Boost mobile haha mfers (I really hate boost, it has been awful with them).
And another really close friend of mine is moving to PA soon so I will be able to see him, and I made a good friend here at the group home that I will be keeping in contact with. So things are looking up. I am literally crying because how is this possible, crying in a good way because all this time of grinding endlessly is finally paying off.
I mean really, if you told me five years ago I would be here now, with my mental health-well- healthy, and good friends and a good relationship with my family and about to get a job and move into my first real place, I would have looked at you like stfu you are crazy. It really makes everything, all of the horrors I went through, worth it to me.
Because I was broken down to dust, but now I have built myself up. And I know things change in life, who knows I could lose my job, but I could also get a new one, I could have to move again, but I know if that happened I would figure it out. Point is, I am now resilient as hell from all of that suffering I went through, it strengthened me. It still sucks, I have mourned a lot for my younger self and all of the things she never should have had to survive.
But at the end of the day, I like who I am. I have peace, joy, and freedom in my mind. I have fought long and hard for this freedom and I am not about to let anything ever take it away again.
I can't wait to buy my mom flowers, and my aunt. That is one thing I have been looking forward to, they helped me the most in life and I want to thank them. My grandma too. I gotta be nonchalant and find out what their favorite flowers are without them finding out I am planning to surprise them with flowers.
Lots of good news to write about today. :)
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