Revisited Some Old Discord Groups

4:11 AM

A few days ago I logged onto an old Discord account that I haven't used in a few years, and revisited some of my old Discord groups to see how they were still doing. What cool memories. Those were some really good times, a few years ago. I remember so many names and stories, we used to hang out and talk all the time and shared our life experiences with each other. Good times. They can never be relived again.

A lot of the members are gone now. All the servers are still up, but most of the people have gone. Some of the servers are completely empty. For some servers that are still up, the people haven't changed.

I'm in some very private Discord groups, I don't know how I was invited to them in the first place. I'm apparently very skilled socially, because I also became a mod and admin of some very large servers, some having over 10,000 members I think. Anyway, the 10,000 member groups are not private, they are the public ones that pretty much anyone can join. I'm also in some private tight-knit groups, that for some reason they invited me to.

I used to talk with the people in these groups as well, but I've been silent for years. Some of the groups are pretty aggressive, openly racist, misogynistic, etc. and they know each other's appearances and identities, where they live, etc. They would often post videos or selfies of themselves doing random activities, talking about women they are sleeping with, their break ups, how they hate certain people, etc. The shocking part is how I became a member of these groups because of how personal and private they are, and how close-knit all the members are. I was in these close-knit groups 5 years ago, and even now it's all the same members, the same people still interacting, they really love this online community that they have.

I got into these groups from 4chan initially. I am intentionally being vague on what the groups are even about. I think it was just one group I got into at the start, literally one group, and at the time I was just some random newbie member, I literally made this Discord account from scratch just to join this Discord. There were already like tens to hundreds of people joining in at the time since the link was being shared. In this group, I somehow moved up socially very quickly, becoming a mod or admin of this server, the second-highest ranking person somehow.

How the heck did I become an admin of this first server? When I joined there were already a bunch of people in the Discord. I was just some random newbie that newly joined. I have nearly perfect memory of my new account registration. I joined, greeted everyone, and people were greeting me, I didn't even have a profile picture and I wouldn't have one for a long time. I don't remember how I became an admin, but I became an admin. This first server was amazing, we had so much fun, random fun, it was so cool. From here, because I was an admin of one server, I used this as my "experience" to become admin of other servers I was invited to.

I gained some reputation, if any, and became admin / mods of other servers because people would share invites to other Discords, and I would join, and people would recognize me from another Discord server and so on, and my reputation built up in this way. It's weird how this progression happened. I had no planning of it. It seemed all random, but yeah, I gained a bunch of social influence as an anonymous random. I am still admin / mod of these servers even right now, some of them have thousands of people, and I'm just a silent person. Most of the servers are dead though, completely empty, barely anyone talking.

Also, I guess I'm good socially too, when communicating via text with people, because people gave me power socially. This is not my JustMegawatt Discord account by the way, this is a completely different one. I'm intentionally being vague on a lot of the details, but I am also just sharing my general experience here.

The stories I've heard are pretty insane. I think I could write a book on the stories and experiences that people shared, and how I relate to them. These are stories that will never be shared again. I had the craziest times and experiences with these people as well.

Do I regret not writing a journal entry for these days? I think I did write journal entries for some of the experiences, but I kept them private. I do regret not writing more entries though, because the times and memories we shared here were so priceless. Again, I'm intentionally being vague, but I have met some of the most interesting characters. One person I met created a viral meme that is used often, and has a "knowyourmeme" page that links to his X account for being the first person to post the meme, he's an interesting character. I'd love to share some more stories some day, but probably when I'm in my 80s I can share them.

I don't know how I got close and personal with so many people. The best comment I have ever received in my life was "X is the most intelligent person I know" and it was from some random married guy who was in the process of a divorce, that I became close friends with somehow, and we would talk a lot about random stuff. He was also a very interesting person, though I don't remember his name at all. We had some very interesting times, seriously.

There were so many talented people that I've met too. Creators, geniuses in my eyes. I'm just garbage compared to them. Some people were able to whip up artwork within minutes of you asking them to draw something, one person could write music and made fun songs on the spot. Crazy. The most insane genius of all, man, I was probably the closest person to him too. That's the interesting thing. He was multi-talented, he could draw, code, and was super creative, a genius, won some coding contests literally, insane achievements I don't even want to list. I only recognize him as a genius in hindsight, because I was just hanging out with him a lot and didn't think much of what he was doing at the time, but yeah, he is an inspiration.

All the chats and everything are recorded. I can still view them now. It's just so interesting the kinds of adventures we were having back in the day, and how I was close to so many people, influential people, and game-changers. Again, I don't know how I became so up there socially, but yeah, I reached pretty high levels of influence on Discord at some point. People would do me favors for no reason, people I never interacted with, would give me a service they might normally charge a lot for.

These servers are mostly dead now like I said, and nearly everyone is gone. The genius guy above is gone. The music guy is gone. The meme guy is gone. The artwork guys are gone, and there were a few of them that were great with art. Those were such fun times.

I guess if anything, it's time for me to join new groups and build up a new reputation maybe? Maybe? I don't know if I can do this all over again. But I have dipped my toes in so many communities and groups. It was so much fun. Again, I am being completely vague. I remember so many minute details of course, but I don't need to go into them. Just that I've chat with the most interesting characters of all time probably. I have my own stories too, I am an interesting character as well, with an interesting past, and I've done a lot of things. I've only shared certain details in my public journal entries, I don't share everything, there's so much about me that's unknown, this is the first time I am even mentioning this Discord saga, and this was a large part of my life, and I was an influential person on there.

I've done pretty much everything. There's few things in the world that are foreign to me. Few areas of knowledge that I don't know general details about. Of course realistically, of all the knowledge in the world I probably know less than 0.00000001% of everything, but I know a decent amount compared to the general population. I've deep dived into a lot of areas and studies. People are mostly specialized in one area, but I've entered so many areas.

I've done military training, fired at least 9 guns, the only one I can remember the name of is the Dragunov, I've ridden a tank, a helicopter, a yacht, a cruise ship, a canoe, a kayak, a paddleboat, a passenger plane, a small plane. I've had millions of views on YouTube, tens of millions of views on Twitter / X, millions of visitors to my own websites.

I've gone hiking up tiny mountains and forests, I've hiked up and down rivers, jumped off of cliffs into the waters below, I've visited very remote locations, visited around 20 countries, lived in at least 4 different countries as in living in a different country for at least a year, I've had girlfriends and we've done whatever, I've gotten Eagle Scout in Boy Scouts, a Black Belt in Tae Know Do, I have an Associates degree, I attended college, dropped out of college, lived in a dorm, I've worked for a few companies, I've been to like 20 states, and so on. And these are just what I'm willing to share publicly. There's a lot to me that is unknown, so many other cool achievements that I don't want to share.

I published a game when I was in 9th grade. On the website Kongregate, it's still up there, a game called Mouse Face by JustMegawatt. It was published in March 3, 2009. How many 9th graders have published a game back then, prior to 2010? I also have a bunch of random games and programs on some calculator program websites, but I don't remember what pseudonym I used. For the Casio Prizm, one of the first games published on Cemetech is by me, I found it, it's called Star Catcher by TheCloak, I was in 11th grade I think. Yeah, I was TheCloak, it was this cool random pseudonym. It's the 5th ever game published for the Casio Prizm on that website, the 5th ever, and that was me.

There's also archives for a website I made back in 3rd grade. Just search for "coolmegg.tk" on the Wayback Time Machine. The first snapshot is from June 8th, 2004. Isn't it interesting some random elementary school student had a domain name website? I mean there's lots of stories like this, I could go on forever.

But yeah, the stories and experiences I experienced 5 years ago, are priceless. They are seriously priceless, worth an infinite value. The stories are insane and magical, the times were insane and magical. I wish I could share more details, they are really fun stories to tell. But I am an just anonymous person on Discord, so I don't want to share too much. I'm just wondering where everyone is now.

That genius I mentioned earlier, I'm sure he could get into any top company he wanted. At the time, I probably was as good as him when it came to coding. Actually, when it came to website design and development, I was definitely better in that area. But in the areas he was good at, he dominated me. The fact that he could do art, and had a very creative and sharp mind, he was a genius. A genius for real. I mean nothing he did was insane to me, with enough studying I could have done what he did, but he did things all so easily and creatively, like a magic touch.

I want this to have been the way some employers and clients might have felt about me, I hope. That they would just ask me of something, and I would have results, just like that. It was always magical what other people did. This was all prior to AI, so everyone still made everything with their own skill and knowledge.

Anyway, this is what I've been doing the past few days. Reminiscing, visiting some old Discord groups, chatting with some people. It's fun. Come to think of it, these times I experienced with them are so priceless. They were some of the best memories in my entire life, and they can never be relived again. Again, I think the experiences I've had here, there could easily be a book written about, and the adventures in them are mind blowing, with as much excitement and fun as Flash Boys. It's all in my memory for now though.