Mental Health Journey 29

Currently listening to: Peeping Tom by Jamie Berry

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I will write my math exam on Tuesday and I am so fucking scared of it.

I was thinking about writing the exam on the second day, but in the end, I need to write the exam. I have my three tries left. Therefore I need to write it to fight my fear against exams.

After writing the setence down I feel so much better.

I wonder where this kind of fear ist from. Maybe from my perfection or the fear of being percieved as a stupid person (my physics teacher called me too stupid for physics for example because I struggled with the way he teached physics).

There is one funny thing I would like to add:

People either see me as an incompetent person and see only the negative aspects of me. Or they thing I am smart and I will make it and deal with physics so much better than the average person. It's crazy what some people around me think of me. It's stressful. They either see I am struggeling or they see I might have some kind of talent in some aspects. Why can't they see both sides? It's annoying.

Well then ... Back to studying. See you soon everyone!