Pimples

7:28 AM

Ever since I changed up my skincare routine to using these experimental DIY skincare products, and since stopping bakuchiol, I started developing these pimples, mainly on the left side of my face. At first I didn't mind, because in my experience they usually just go away on their own. However, it's been about a a week or so now, and they are not disappearing, and are just remaining red and annoying. Even if my face looks acceptable, having pimples just makes it look worse. It just adds blemishes and really ruins what could be a good appearance.

I uploaded selfies I took from two weeks ago when my face was clear, and I basically looked like a decent, good looking dude, in my opinion. Now I look like shite because of these pimples. Also I think I gained some weight. I have been lazy the past 2-3 weeks and even though I have been exercising a lot, I have probably also been eating a lot. So this is annoying.

It really is true that people who lose weight will often just gain it all back within a year. It's all due to their habits. Even though I have lost a lot of weight this year, my habits are shite, and hurt me in the long run. Most of the time I am just on my computer, browsing the Internet, and I eat a lot of food. I am sedentary. So it's no wonder there is all this weight gain. It's no mystery.

I also shaved because the long beard I had was making it difficult to apply proper skincare to these areas with pimples. Anyway, hopefully this resolves the issues.

Look how handsome I was just two weeks ago!! Ugh.... I need to get back to that level again. This hurts me so much to lose so much.

I started applying my tried and true skincare routine again: Vegan PDRN, MyDew Multi-peptide Serum, and Bakuchiol. Actually, when I had clear skin two weeks ago, I think my skincare routine was Vegan PDRN, MyDew Multi-Peptide Serum, and D'Alba Volufiline Cream. But, I read that bakuchiol helps with pimples, so that's why I started applying it again.

Now about the weight loss... What am I going to do about that?? I need to fix my habits and go back to eating just whole foods only. I started eating a lot of junk food lately, because I was so thin, I felt like I could eat unlimited foods without gaining any weight, and for a long time I did not gain any weight. For months I maintained whatever weight I lost. Now I'm afraid to get on the scale again, horrified of the idea that I gained all my lost weight back.

But yeah, I just need to go back to eating whole foods only. Eating that way, lots of fruits, vegetables, meat substitutes, it's nearly impossible to gain weight on. The reason I likely gained weight, was I ate a lot of protein bars and Clif bars. I bought them from Marshalls recently because they were so cheap, but they are like 200 to 250 calories each, and I could eat like 10 in a single day, along with other foods.

I was so decent looking just two weeks ago... I can't believe I look so ruined now. Ugh... Anyway, I'm trying my best.

I'm going to have to start exercising a lot again. I played Beat Saber two nights ago while wearing 5 pound wrist weights on both of my arms. I wanted to play them again this morning doing the same thing, but after washing my face this morning, one of my pimples in between my eyebrows was damaged and was oozing a liquid, I didn't want to get that on my VR headset so I didn't play it this morning. It's annoying.

I wish I could solve my problems. It is true that your environment reflects your inner world. Your appearance reflects your inner world. People who have a clean home, like my parents, they always clean up every single day, they have a clean world. They are in shape too, sort of. If I were in their position, I think I could do a lot better in terms of getting in shape, but they are so consistent in their good habits such as cleaning and exercising every day. I try to clean and exercise every day, my place is still mostly a mess. My appearance is basically unchanging except for the negative.

I need to get back to how I looked two weeks ago and surpass it.