Mental Health Journey Day 39

Currently listening to: nothing

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I am still alive, everyone! Hello!

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This weekend was pretty exhausting. My parents visited me. We had some tea and cake.

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I am feeling pretty depressed lately. I feel extremely weak and struggle with simple tasks. Or tasks I really enjoy doing, like reading my book. I guess I need to take my adhd meds again lol. I keep forgetting to take them because I drink something with caffeine as my pre-workout, and I can't take my meds while the caffeine is still working.

I need to set a reminder, so I can do it.

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One thing that has been bothering me lately is the approach some people have with their neurodivergence. They feel proud to be neurodivergent, and I can't grasp that. Why should I feel proud of something that disables me? I don't understand it. Yes, I can become very knowledgeable about my special interest, but only after fighting my depression. I approach my neurodivergence with a neutral opinion. I try not to hate it. At the same time, I don't force myself to feel proud. I guess I see this a little bit differently than other neurodivergent people. That's okay, if they (or you) feel proud. I personally don't like the approach to force myself to feel proud of something that society can't handle, and therefore develop other issues.

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Special interest:

• played my favourite game
• some sketches (I bought a new sketchbook for my original characters)
• Almost finished my travel sketchbook

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See you tomorrow, everyone!