Mental Health Journey Day 47

Currently listening to: nothing

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I am currently doing okayish. I felt a little bit ugly about myself. But that's it. I spent some time with my friends and watched some anime with some people. That was fun.

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I hate this feeling of being ugly. I know that I am not ugly. My eye makeup skills are pretty good. In addition to that, I have found what kind of clothes I love to wear. All of this doesn't stop me from feeling ugly. The main reason could be that I am not fitting into the beauty standard. With the way I express myself, I am challenging the beauty standard.

I don't have a small nose, I don't dress very feminine, I wear suit trousers and shirts in my everyday life, and I love it. I prefer to wear fancy and loud makeup. I don't care about fitting into the standard because my whole existence is loud.

I still feel the pressure of fitting in. I am trying my best to get rid of this feeling. Since I started to change the way I express myself, I have made some progress. I love the way I dress and I won't change that.

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A few things I enjoyed:

• to drink some orange juice
• to spend time with friends
• to listen to music
• to sleep

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Good night, everyone!