Overcoming Fears

I have befriended the mouse in my apartment. Not really, obviously, but I have found a way to overcome the fear. I have the mindset that it is my little friend, it peaked it's head around the corner and said good morning. I freaked out and cursed up a storm, and then apologized. I named it Speaky. All of this helped me be less terrified of it and is necessary for me to be able to sleep at night.

I arranged everything so that all my food is only ion the cabinets or fridge, they can't get to either I checked and made sure. I take out the trash often, and I arranged my furniture to make it impossible for it to climb up on any surfaces because that's really unsanitary.

Even aside from the part of it triggering my aracnaphobia (Fear of spiders) mice often carry all sorts of diseases and are very germ ridden. The building I live in is old, but we usually don't get mice except for the winter. Which makes sense, with it being cold they do tend to be indoors more.

So I use my Swiffer mop often, never go barefoot, and wipe down all the surfaces whenever I remember. Especially the table. But I did rearrange the furniture to make it virtually impossible for a mouse to get up on top. But still can't be too careful.

I am spending today recovering from yesterday, physical therapy really wiped me out and it was just the intake. Tomorrow I have therapy, mental health therapy, and will be bringing my trauma work journal-the Google document I have been filling with trauma work poetry, journal entries, etc.

It's grey outside. So that's today's mood, pretty boring but relaxed and chill.

I'm in a lot of pain but they finished the bathroom renovations so I took a shower last night. It wasn't as bad as I was expecting it to be. I have the shower chair someone was kind enough to give me for free, and the shower head detaches so I can bring it to me. So it wasn't horribly painful, still exhausting washing my hair. But not as awful as I had anticipated. I took a short nap afterwards.

I am going to continue this new anime I just started called Spirit Chronicles. I am enjoying it so far!

Oh and I almost forgot, my ex tried to add me as a friend on Finch today 😆 Nauuurrrrr I blocked that bitch so fast like get TF outta here.

Finch has really been an amazing app though! 😄 I have been using it for a few weeks and it has been helpful. For those who don't know it is a self care app where you raise a little pet bird.