I feel so unfulfilled lol. It's been 4 months ever since I graduated. I took my boards last September, and now I enrolled for a review to prepare for the NMAT next year. I actually don't want to pursue med lol. I just wanted to delay my employment so that I could still rest and enjoy before I work. My review will be starting in about 3 weeks from now, so currently I've just been doing chores, doomscrollig through soc meds, and playing games. Before, I had a schedule of what things I'm going to do in a day. Now I just do things when I want to. If I don't want to clean, I'm not going to clean haha. I've also been looking for jobs, but have not submitted any 'cause whenever I read reviews of the company, it's either the shift, the manager/team leader, or the work itself is toxic. I'm not sure if I should go for those if I want experience, then just job hop for another year, or maybe just wait for a better work lol.
I guess I feel unfulfilled because I've been doing things out of habit. Before, I used to write down stuff and check it off my list. Now I'm kinda spontaneous with everything. I guess that’s why I switched from INFJ to INFP lol.
*hugs* I understand what you mean. Doing things out of habit or going through the motions feels very unfulfilling. Toxic work environments are a huge cause of burnout as well, so I am sorry that you are having trouble finding a good place to work. You deserve to work in a job/career that both pays the bills and also doesn't crush your soul or steal your joy. I wish I could offer some helpful advice on how to find fulfillment in life, but it is different for each person and what works for one person won't necessarily work for everyone else. But I can send virtual hugs your way and let you know I understand what you mean, I empathize. I hope that you are able to find that spark or find things that bring the color and fulfillment into your life.
I've fallen into this "trap" a bunch of times. It takes a while to break out of it and become productive and organized again. I repeat this mistake all the time.
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