Just Another Day, but not just another entry

11:46 PM

Isn't it crazy how the days just go by and there is nothing we can do to stop it? I think that is pretty wild. Thomas Edison died in 1931, which is less than 100 years ago, but it feels like he died over 200 years ago. He is ancient history.

I remember up until the mid-2010s, that Nikola Tesla was pretty much a very unknown figure that not many really cared about. Nikola Tesla's most remarkable achievement is coming up with the design for the alternating current generator, which revolutionized electricity as we know it. I think that prior to him, there was no alternating current generator, and that it was merely theory that it was possible.

I do think that Thomas Edison is more remarkable than Nikola Tesla, although I do like Nikola Tesla more. Thomas Edison was a young inventor, creating unique gadgets and inventions since his early 20s. He invented the Phonograph when he was around 30 years old in 1877, and it has been relevant ever since, becoming better known as a gramophone and then a record player which was popular and relevant for probably 100+ years. Modern CDs and disk players are based off of the same technology concept, that etches in a cylinder device could be glided over by some needle and sound or data can be extracted from it. Thomas Edison came up with that concept, and he made the entire device in his home.

Even with modern technology and all the resources in the world, I don't think I can invent the Phonograph from scratch. Thomas Edison was able to do this from scratch. He made all the materials himself. He came up with the idea and concept himself. Then he made this device that can play recorded sound. Then he went on to create the light bulb, and he was a business leader coming up with the General Electric company, which lasted for 100+ years. I can't believe that General Electric is now defunct, split into three companies.

There is a reason that Thomas Edison was known as the "Wizard of Menlo Park" and it's that he was able to invent things. He invented the light bulb, and also the first video camera, and the alkaline batteries, all relevant technologies that we still use today. Just one person invented these things. His mind was one in a billion.

The smartest person who ever lived is probably not Einstein, although of course Einstein himself was a genius and prodigy. Of course everyone has unique gifts, talents and intelligence. Einstein probably couldn't play the piano for example, he would probably suck at video games, and art. He was a genius in physics and math, but not much else. Leonardo Da Vinci was skilled at everything, he could do everything at an exceptional level. But still, I would say that the smartest person goes to Jon Von Neumann. He has touched the broadest amounts of fields in math and science and has impacted each one in a tremendous way. Modern day computers exist because of his papers.

It's truly all fascinating stuff. I really do not want to be a nobody. I want to accomplish and do major things like these individuals. It can be tough. It is tough.

These individuals are all gone, dead forever. They cannot say a single word or argue or say anything back to what we say about them. We can say something completely incorrect about them, and they cannot defend themselves. Even though these people all existed at one point, they basically exist as just ideas now, almost indistinguishable from fiction. Anyone can say they are the reincarnation of them, and no one would be able to argue against it.

When you die, how would you feel if someone in the future said they were a reincarnation of you? I would be fine with it. They can claim to be a reincarnation of me, and I wouldn't be able to say anything against it, I would be dead. As long as they use my name in a positive way and are not harming animals, I am fine with people claiming to be a reincarnation of me. But who would want to right now anyway? I am a nobody.

As the years go by, it seems like that is what I'll always be. It seems that way. Unless I make a major shift in my actions and decisions, I will continue to be this nobody.

Anyway, that was a good reflection. I'm going to keep trying and will come again tomorrow. A few things did happen this past week, but I didn't write about them at all. I will write about them.

Well, I talked to AD, the online friend who has PSSD/PFS/PEDS. We just chat on Reddit every now and then. He is unable to feel any emotion, he has brain fog, he has ED, he looks aged, all stemming from minoxidil usage. He says he cannot keep up with conversations, because everything seems like mush. People cannot recognize him anymore, because he looks so different. He lost his girlfriend who was going to be his wife, because he became unable to feel any love and emotion, and has ED. Just the absolutely worst case scenario for anyone to experience. The horrors of modern day medicine.

We just continued chatting about stuff. I try to always be positive when I reply to him, because he is going through the absolute worst nightmares, and he is always so hopeless when he messages me. Who wouldn't? I gave him a list of things to follow every day, and if he did those things, his life would go well no matter what. I'm not sure if he follows them, but I should follow my own advice and do those things too. He struggles because he is unable to even think properly. He says his home is a mess and there is junk all over. He cannot even make his own meals anymore. Just extremely difficult times for him.

Then I talked to this new person who is very knowledgeable about volumizing creams and lotions and stuff like that. We're both at roughly the same level of knowledge, which isn't very difficult to attain. But for example we know about PPAR-Gamma which is a receptor/gene for the expression of adipocytes, we know about P-Values and statistical significance, and products like Voluplus, Adipofill, Sculpup, Adipeau, Volufiline, Adifyline, etc, which probably 99.9999999% of the population has never heard about. There are literally 3 posts on the entire site of Reddit throughout all of history, a site with millions of new posts a day, with the word "Sculpup" and 2 of those posts are from me and her. Yeah I guess my Reddit account can be found in this way, and that's fine, I'm not hiding it, Megawatt is in my username on Reddit too.

Anyway, I shared with her my volume problems. It's cool that someone is so knowledgeable on the topic, again, we are probably equal in terms of knowledge. But actually in all honestly, I likely have more knowledge than her in this area, but I am being humble. My opinions on substances such as retinoids, hyaluronic acid, etc. have changed over time. She is actually quite knowledgeable too. We both realize that any oleic and linoleic acids increase adipogenesis in cell tissue, so she is fine using cheap oils like cottonseed oil, while I'm buying more expensive ones that are already formulated like safflower seed oil, but I agree they would probably work the same. She is not an idiot.

Again it is pretty interesting conversing with someone who understands a similar level as you. Does she know the difference between adipogenesis and lipogenesis? She probably does. It wouldn't surprise me. I have brought up random terms to her, and she would reply understanding what it is. She knows what INCI is, and knows what to look for in ingredients. She knows exact peptide names like Acetyl Hexapeptide-38 which is Adifyline, and I can't believe she knew that. She didn't know it was Adifyline which is the brand name, but she mentioned Acetyl Hexapeptide-38 and of course I knew what it was shocking she brought it up. I mean who else knows these ingredient names?

She also brought up Adipofill, another brand name. I've only just heard about it yesterday, and she has probably known about it for a while. Maybe she does know more than me? Again we are probably equal in knowledge. I have my own opinions on things, like I think Bakuchiol is BS now. But she likes it. My opinion can always change, just my understanding of it all is different after reading more and learning more.

Does she know about Volufiline? It's probably the most popular volumizing topical in the world right now. I mentioned that she knows it, but I don't know if she does. We both have never brought it up in conversation. I think it's because we both understand the studies that support it, suck. They are terrible. From the papers, it basically does nothing. So I'm surprised people say it works, when even the research papers supporting it basically shows it doesn't do anything. Now products like Sculpup and Adifyline, these papers have crazy results, these work. On a scale of effectiveness, Volufiline is a 1, and adifiyline and Sculpup are probably 85 and 115 respectively, comparatively, with Sculpup showing the craziest results. So that's why I say volufiline basically does nothing.

Anyway, what do I know? My face is having problems still. I don't know if recovery is possible still. But I am trying. It's fun chatting with these people. And isn't this a cool journal entry? I went all over the place.

Everything here was pulled from my mind. I have a vast storage of knowledge from history to any other field. I've read/listened to the biographies of tons of people, so I know a decent amount about a lot. This has always been the case for me, I've always been knowledgeable, and I always continue to learn more. There's extremely few things that I've not heard of or researched. I'm pretty much caught up and knowledgeable in multiple areas at once. It is extremely rare that someone can mention a topic, and that I don't know about it at some level. It's weird why my life isn't going so great, because I am so knowledgeable. It's because I never apply myself. I don't do what the good ideas are.

There is this one famous quote from Mark Twain, that a person who does not read is no different from a person who cannot read. Even if you know how to draw or program or create music, if you don't do those things, you are no different from someone who doesn't know how to do those things. It is true.

I have knowledge in how to create any website. I have that skillset. I can make websites from scratch. At my prime, I could probably make any website, such as something similar to Facebook, in probably a week, all the basic features but nothing extravagant. I could get a prototype up in a weekend, but all the complicated and intricate features take longer to build. Could I do that now? No. I'm rusty. It's been a while. I'm literally no different now than someone who doesn't know how to do that at all.

That's just the truth of things. You have to use your knowledge. I don't. I'm a fucking shame. Anyway. I need to reflect on this. Why don't I apply myself? A question for the ages.