updates ;) also i need help with some stuff lol ;-;

hello beautiful people! another day another slay right? im kinda in a happy sad complicated mood rn which i don't fully understand. i did a lil bit of journaling this morning in a notebook. also gamed 30 mins in the morning before school. didn't get my steps in today as well ;-; and my bf is busy with his family and i can't help but feel like im talking to a wall again (for the ones who don't know, first relationship a few months ago had me emotionally abandoned and im insecure. he helped me through it all mostly through consistency but it's hard not to constantly spam his dms sometimes) i really wanted to talk to him and my head feels like it's spinning. so so bad. aaaaaaa

at school i made a plan abt what to get done this december and the list is long!

• set up bullet journal (not even half way done)
• complete the newspaper competition entry (1/15 done)
• do my computer science file work (not started yet)
• do my computer science project (almost done, gotta get it printed and spiraled)
• complete biology notebook
• complete computer notebook
• revise the set syllabus for my five subjects
• decorate my study space
• attend a wedding out of town (2 days total, might also get a dermatologist appointment out of town)
• figure out my routine and daily time management
• figure out what i want with my life (career planning basically as next year will be my last high school year)

First i filled my plate up and now im scared lmaooooo

for jan i also got some stuff on, first the journals and stuff, then i also have a mini album to compose (i wanna be regular with 1 or 2 songs each month next year and same with yt vids) and then i also have my weight to figure, cause i'll be stressed the whole year and that causes me to eat a shit ton lot more and also lack sleep so i need to figure my shit out.

if anyone has any tips to help with anything please do help me out here, im 16 i am taking on way more than what i can do but i'll still try (im a stubborn bitch)