Guess what time it is rn. 01:26 am and why am I up, for my bf. Who is probably not even going to show up. And guess what. My feed, my yt feed is filled with couple shorts like couples being happy together and bs like that and it is getting on my nerves rn bc I WANNA BE WITH MY BF LIKE THAT TOO I WANNA FEEL HOW IT FEELS TO HOLD SOMEONE CLOSE AND KISS SONEONE AND JUST CUDDLE! MY FAMILY IS NOT BIG ON HUGS AND STUFF EITHER AND IT HAS BEEN MONTHS SINCE I LAST GOT A REAL TIGHT HUG AND I JUST WANT TO FEEL HIM SO BAD I WANT TO TOUCH HIM AND FEEL CLOSE TO HIM BIT THIS FUCKING DISTANCE BETWEEN US JUST BREAKS MY HEART AND TO RUB SALT ON THE WOUND MY FEED IS GONNA BE LIKE THAT! GREAT! JUST FUCKING GREAT! I WANNA FUCKING CRY RN BUT IDK WHY IM HOLDING BACK! IDK! IDK WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME AND I AM SO FICKING FRUSTRATED AND JUST TIRED RN I wanna feel close to him. Christmas is big on his family so he hasn't been online much and I feel like I'm talking to a fucking wall again. Like he also doesn't give a fuck but I know he does give a fuck and is trying his best, but still the feeling won't fucking go away. I feel so fucking guilty over it and gosh I even feel guilty for swearing rn bc someone will read this and idk what's up with me feeling guilty for everything I just wanna be in my bf's arms and cry rn but I can't even do that!
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