So for anyone who has read my other entries yk i have a boyfriend. Been dating 5 months online long distance. Anyways I was missing him a lot so I called him this evening, which is around day time for him. Did he pick up? Nope. Am I anxious if he'll be mad? Yep. Why am I anxious? Idk he's chill all the time, but I never call him so idk if he'll like it. For context we haven't yet talked on call and it's cause he's not that type of a person and I also don't wanna push him, but I called him today bc I missed him very much. Idk what he'll say when he gets online but I just wanna really talk to him. Aaaaa today I was getting reminded Abt him a lot at school. First my friends were talking Abt their bfs who they aren't really happy with (they don't know I have a bf, if they knew I'll probably be teased to death Abt how I got one) and then during a free lecture our music teacher was substituting our teacher, and was singing love song in class like aaaaaaaa! I was smiling all the day like a damn fool. So yea I missed him a lot today. Idk why i sound like I'm justifying missing my bf and calling him. Ik it's normal for many people to talk to their bf/gf everyday or often in this stage, but the one time I had that kind of a connection it went terribly wrong after, so I'm scared of pushing for that contact with my bf I don't wanna lose him. Idk why I'm getting to that aaaaaaaaa bye? Bye!
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