The start of something bad

8:31 AM (of Thursday, August 20th 2020)

Today is Tuesday, August 18th 2020 and it was the start of something bad. Yesterday was a practically a perfect day, but I ended up messing up, so I reset all of my streaks yesterday. Today I messed up again and I reset all my streaks again, and because I was resetting my streaks, I didn't even bother doing any of my normal activities, I just let it all go.

I also got pulled into a pretty stupid and risky activity today, which I'll write about in a private entry since it's really stupid. I spent a lot of today just doing that, after work that was all I did. It was so stupid and such a huge waste of time, I didn't get anything done.

I'm writing this entry on Thursday, so I know what happens tomorrow too, and tomorrow I just did more of the same. On Thursday I'm planning on catching up on all my streak items, and then resetting everything for Friday, and seriously doing a full reset again and sticking to it 100% for the rest of the month until my birthday, and forever after my birthday too.

Maybe I should just set aside one hour for bad activities, and then the rest of the day I should do more meaningful activities? I think that's what I plan on doing, because I still kind of want to participate in the new stupid thing I started, but at the same time I don't want to do too much of it. I think one hour a day of rest / break / relaxation / anything, is a good compromise if the rest of the day is spent wisely. Like I said my plan is to start that on Friday, while I get caught up on everything for Thursday.

Today was the start of something bad, but I'm putting limits to it, and then starting something much better on Friday.