It's exactly as it is. Finally done with my degree and today just had my final presentation plus submitted my files. I feel like the world is open to me now and it's actually more exciting than scary. I decided I wanted to set at least a course or a path of what I'm gonna do in my next 6 years of life before I turn 30. I don't have to go through life to know that it's fleeting. I know it is.
I sat and thought how it'll be soon before I realize that I'll be 30 (if I'm still alive) and I wondered what would I want to feel looking back when that time comes. Contentment? Joy? Sadness? I don't fear those emotions but I don't want to have regrets. I refuse to live a life that haunts me with the word "If only..."
Hence I decided, to do a 6 year planning (and taking my time with it). I know how the world works; it doesn't always go how we want it. But I'd rather walk with a purpose than aimlessly go somewhere, for me at least...and I am actually better at improvisation haha. It is a good thing that I don't fear failures, I just don't like it. It's just how life goes. I will do mistakes, I will mess up, but what's important is that I learn from it and NEVER repeat those mistakes again.
I learned a lot about myself during my studies and my internship. I have a lot of growing up to do at the same time I never wanted to let my inner child dies, no matter how harsh the world can be. That balance, is something I'm still working on. I'm just glad I grew up healthy and still alive till today, it's really His grace that I'm still alive.
A few words to myself: I will grow up to be a wise woman, a fine adult and a kind human being :)
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