Sept. 21, 2020

September 21, 2020

Eventful start of the week. Bad dreams last night. Saw that person I wanted to avoid in my dreams again. I was avoiding her again. I wondered why she was invading my "space", they're places you wouldn't expect her to be. Then my "sex" dreams are disgusting. My perversion is leaking through my dreams and it disgusts me to no end. It's creepy and extremely wrong. Why can't I have sex dreams about Justin? Maybe cause he's not a real person? 

Slipped on the tub this morning. Fortunately I fell on my butt and didn't hit my head. A bit rattled this morning. Didn't cry, don't have a reason to. But made me think that everything is going wrong for me this 2020. I'd like to think these are just trials and hopefully I will overcome them. It was scary and I'm feeling a bit of discomfort the side of my body, maybe it's just my pants. I don't know.

I still need to think about my career. I don't know what I want to be. Mom gave me directions, either an admin or a consultant. I liked the sound of consultant better as I'm not really that good with people. I think staying here for now, try to gain as much client facing experiences, and improving my analytical and programming skills, learn new language...I think it is the best course for me for now, career wise. I really need to upgrade my technical and communication skills. I still have a lot to learn before I level up. 

A new day starts. Supposed to get feedback on our deliverables. But while waiting, I need to get in my lessons for now. Later!

Written by cake_thug

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