A Little Frightened

11:19 PM

I'm so glad I'm not alone in this project I'm working on or else I'd probably be terrified enough to cancel it all. I'm nervous and afraid for multiple reasons. Will this project succeed? Will it even reach "flash in the pan" status where it becomes a hit for maybe a day and then fades away, or will it just be another failure from the get-go?

We've been working on this project for about 3 weeks, which I guess isn't that long, but now we've got a lot of people interested and are keeping their eye on us. In our discord we have several hundred members now. It's relatively quiet, not much conversation really goes on there except the team most of the time. I hope once the project actually launches that chatter starts to pick up more.

Another thing that makes me nervous is that we have to use a lot of our own money initially. I guess it's not that bad, just several hundreds of dollars, but that could all go to nothing. And then even though we have a lot of people in our groups, how many of them will actually be willing to put money into the project? Like will it launch, and then we end up raising.... almost nothing? I don't know. I hope we hit our goal... and that's another scary thing, our goal is a big number to me.

Should I be more scared about hitting our goal, or not hitting our goal and stagnating? I think I would prefer hitting our goals, but that outcome is also frightening because if we hit our goals then we better have a working product, one that works similarly to what we described at least. I mean we did the work and testing already, it should be good to go, but who knows, right? Everything could end up in a disaster and end in flames, and people lose all their money, and we lose all our money, and then... I dunno. We'll probably try to remake it again, or do a refund? Either scenario feels like a disaster to me.

The ideal scenario is that we hit our goals, we launch, the product works as expected, everyone is happy, it has a "flash in the pan" moment where it's extremely popular for a short period of time, and by extremely popular I mean #1 on some metrics or something, and then basically just becomes a "thing" overtime. That's the ideal scenario I'm envisioning. Will we hit that ideal scenario? I don't even known. I don't know.

Anyway if this project is successful, I'm going to need some time to do my finances and taxes with everything related to this project before working on the next one. It's kinda cool I guess, the team and I just started off with nothing, and now we have hundreds of people that are possibly interested and willing to put money in, but none of us can really know for sure if they are. We'll just wait and see what happens.

Seriously I hope it goes well. If anything, I guess I'm having some fun. It's more stress than fun to be honest, but at least my life isn't so boring with this project. Just a few more days before we launch.