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I've spent the last few days doing self-care shit, feeling 4 years worth of chronic stress slowly seep out of my body. I seriously went through ALL of my stress activities during the election week - baking, eating, sleeping, insomnia, shopping, drugs, sport, procrastination, etc. Doing anything I could obsessively to distract myself. I'm not even happy Biden won, I'm just relieved that we don't have to go through Trump again. It sucks because usually after a president that swings closer to one side we tend to have a president that swings closer to the other side - swinging back and forth between extremes. Biden isn't even that liberal, he is super centrist. It really pisses me off that people in power make not destroying our planet a political thing, it should be common sense! I discovered AOC the other day, and I love her energy. She gives me hope after the death of RBG. She gives me hope that there is somebody out there who believes in equal rights and saving the planet who has the same non-stop determination as RBG. I hate politics and think that that shit is boring, however, in this day and age, I have to be active and aware. Ignorance is a choice. I bought a shirt from the official AOC shop, it has "the green new deal" written across the front, and I'm counting that as a political donation. I'm also listening to YUNGBLUD again, for some extra spice to my brain detox - I'm trying to surround myself with liberal messaging to help my brain heal from the trauma of Donald's time in office. So I'll be wearing my AOC shirt and Pussy Riot hoodie whilst listening to YUNGBLUD and repotting my houseplants. Just to pretend that the world is the way I want it to be so I can heal. Then I can start working again - going to protests and contacting my representatives. I can't do too much, I've also got to apply to college.