Viewing Plans

Today went a little better than expected. I hadn't heard from Scott again yet (my friend who is supposedly giving me rides to run errands), but I did receive a reply from someone I contacted about a room. Here is something I wrote on facebook earlier, for convenience's sake.

Trying not to get my hopes too far up yet, but I'm waiting on a reply about seeing a room in the city. It's LGBT friendly, in my price range, and wouldn't be a huge distance away from where I am now (cheaper to move to).

I'd be living with two other guys in a sober home (which is great for me honestly, I'm not supposed to drink on my meds, and I'd love to support others in their own sobriety). I had messaged a few different people, but this was the first response I got that wasn't just "no," it looks like a nice place, and the guy was really polite when he emailed me. I really hope it turns out well! I am worried because I had to explain that my (disability) source of income isn't for a physical disability (he worried about me being able to get up to the 3rd floor), but I guess I'll wait and see what happens...I hope I didn't just shoot myself in the foot...

He's out of town presently, but his other roommate may be able to show me the place. Hopefully I'll hear back about when soon, then I'll have one less thing to worry about. I really seriously doubt I'll turn down any place that would have me, so I really jumped at this opportunity. Getting that first message of consideration meant so much to me. It put me one step closer to finding a home. I felt pretty at ease today compared to how I've been feeling lately most of the time because of that.

Still keeping my eyes out, just in case, but it's still a lot of pressure off to know I -might- have a place to go. One possible option is much better than none, which is where I was at yesterday. I also messaged my church's parish administrator and she said she would put out a message for me as well, so it's good to know that my church family may also have my back if this doesn't work out...

I'm trying to utilize every possibility and opportunity to its fullest. I may be going through hell now, but I know to not stop and to keep moving forward because all things eventually change. I won't give up for as long as I find the slightest bit of hope to cling to. I've always been like a dandelion that grows between the cracks in concrete- stubborn and hard to get rid of....kidding...tenacious and bright. With qualities like that, I can get through anything. I'm trying my hardest not to let this experience break me.

Thank you to those of you who have donated so far! (Especially my Aunt D, who sent me some money for the big move!) This will help me with moving fees, shipping supplies, medication, and rent in both my current location and future residence (It's possible that I will have to pay for a full month at both places due to whenever the move happens to be- est. April 15th at the soonest)

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After that, I actually received another reply from Jason (note, this is not the same person as Jaysin, who abducted me). He's going to pass my contact info to John, the other guy that lives there, and I'll have to walk across town alone to go see this place on a Thursday or Friday sometime in the very near future. Jason came across as a bit cold in the emails, I hope that we can all get along well... I know I'm going to run into trouble trying to get groceries or getting laundry done (there's no washer or dryer in the house...) because using uber or lyft cost a lot of money, but we're not quiiiiite close enough that I would be able to get to those places, especially in all weather. Guess I'll cross that bridge when I come to it.

It would be REALLY NICE if I heard back from that place I applied to on google docs from craigslist, but I think they're waiting it out to filter through people until they're ready to rent and I just won't have the time if they contact me.... It would be like $100 more to live there, but sounds like a really good environment, so who knows, I may end up moving again right after I move... Especially if I do get a stimulus at the beginning of next month like I think I might. I really hope I do. I really need more money to move. It sucks I still have to pay rent here even though I'm being kicked out, but they ARE giving me extra time...