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That's a lot of medication bro. Way too much imo... Hope you're okay Iyazo.

Glad Scott is fine. It's weird he shut down his facebook though, what was the reason for that, or was it too personal he didn't go into it?

Awesome that your therapist's assistant will be willing to take in your pets, that's great news.

Eat more food please. Also yeah, an only fans would probably get you a good income. Maybe. I mean that's what I'm hearing, that people are making lots of dough on there.

Also I just read your new profile description (it's updated from what I read before), and wow that is a lot that you've gone through and still go through. Do you take Vitamin D supplements? You should if your body is void of it. I just get Vitamin D from the sun, around 2 minutes of tropical sun at peak is sufficient each day, but in wintery weather it's 4 hours a week (so like 45 minutes a day).

Glad you had a lot of good news for today though.

@JustMegawatt Oh I am on wayyy more medication than just that. It's a lot. If I stop taking them though, I would get super messed up. They keep me levelled out. I should actually write an updated list of the medications I'm on currently, just so I have it. It's honestly a pain to remember them all and what time to take them if I have to explain it to someone else, so making a list is pretty handy. I may just post it here because...well, why not, I guess? One of the medications IS actually a vitamin D supplement, yes. 50,000 units once a week (on SUNday, of course!). I've been on it for so long now that my levels stay in a stable normal range, so I'm in less pain than I used to be (also because it's no longer winter lol) however, long term use like this is associated with kidney failure... I'll probably be switched to a lower dose if I can stay within the normal range.

Scott actually shut his facebook down again. He's been behaving oddly. I'm not really sure what's going on with him. I called him today and he sounded really out of it (possibly drunk?) and said he was busy- that's when he told me to call him back around 3:30 and never picked up.

I'll have you know I had some applesauce today! It's not much, but it's at least healthy. So I did eat something and it didn't make me sick at all! Also yup, I did update my profile ya lil peeper lol I wanted to make it a little shorter and neater. Just a little update. Still keeping Angel Dust as my pfp tho~ I took a decent selfie today and briefly thought about switching it, but then I didn't.

Haha you sound so innocent about onlyfans, I'm certain you know nothing about that~ You can be my only fan tho bby ;D

@iyazo Just listing those 3 medications is already a lot. Don't you WANT to get off the meds? That would be a nice goal, then you'd save money on medical expenses, and you don't have to take anymore pills.

Applesauce is nice, but that's still barely anything. Why not buy a bag of apples, and go through the whole bag? Or a bag of oranges and go through the whole bag? I want to do that, like, just buy a bag of oranges, and eat all the oranges. Doesn't that sound delicious? Like a bag of tangerines, and eat through the whole thing? Juicy, succulent, orange.

LOL I could totally see how you could read that last part I wrote in a sarcastic tone LOL. But for real, I've never used onlyfans, just porn sites. I've spent $100s on porn sites ever since Pornhub closed, since I could only get the porn I wanted by paying. But I've spent $0 on OnlyFans, don't even have an account there. And my former habit is TERRIBLE it is like alcoholism or some other drug addiction tbh.

@JustMegawatt Honestly the medicines don't usually cost me anything with my insurance, only a few of them are expensive (like the Vitamin D). The most they usually cost is $1.30 each... Of course being on so many, it does add up. I'm on them all for various reasons though and understand why my doctor put me on each one of them. If I had the choice of not being medicated for life, I'd take it, but I'd like to stay physically and mentally healthy.

Unfortunately I don't have any of those things at the moment... I really need to make a trip to the grocery store, but I'm waiting until I have to go out for other errands because that will be pretty far away and my last uber fare for running errands was $44. I plan on keeping stuff that will stay good for a while if I need to throw it in storage, or that I'll be able to finish before moving out of here. I would love a bag of apples, but I need to cut them up because of a damaged tooth that I have... That means I would have to go downstairs, which I'm trying to avoid. I suppose I could keep a knife in my room, but they would notice it missing and probably get suspicious of me for taking it. I do love some kinds of apples though like honeycrisp and gala. I actually dislike oranges... Though I love orange juice and I love tangerines lol Maybe if I can get to the store soon I'll get some tangerines and bananas. If I didn't have to worry about where Jena and Glitch might be in the house while I try to avoid them, I would get a bag of potatoes too. They can be plain and filling enough that it wouldn't upset my stomach. So could rice, but again, can't make it here.

Wait, pornhub closed...? Since when? I'm really curious what exactly it is that you want that you can only get by paying (I get that it's personal though if you don't wanna answer that). I think that in moderation it's healthy, but I can definitely see how it can turn into an addiction and have a negative impact on your life. I actually shared a house with a guy once who was an ex-alcoholic, and he replaced that addiction with sex and masturbation, so I very much can see how similar they are.

@iyazo I'll donate to you if you want to get some materials you need to stay healthy like a rice cooker or a pot. And if you want to buy some potatoes and rice and tangerines, I'll donate to help you out there too. Also a B12 supplement. That's the only supplement I take, but it's essential for me, and likely essential for you as well since you don't even eat anything.

Potatoes are amazing, you could basically live off of them for a while like the guy in the book The Martian (work of fiction, but the author did his research). Some guy in real lived off only potatoes for an entire year, no other foods but potatoes, and some populations like the Irish lived primarily on potatoes. It's a super food, because you can grow so much of it in a small amount of space, and it's very nutritious.

Pornhub recently made it so that only "Verified Members" can post videos, and all videos uploaded by non-verified members have been deleted, so it essentially closed. Only like 1% of the members were Verified members, so almost all videos have been deleted. My fetish is private, even the videos I pay for don't even have my exact fetish, just close to it.

@JustMegawatt If you do donate I'll use it to get things like that and try to eat more, but no obligation of course. I'm not even sure when I'll be able to go to the store. I should try for Saturday, maybe. I still have that comment saved about the B12 supplements so I remember what to look for, although the multivitamin I currently take says in one dose it has 417% of the daily value! I should be fine with that much.

Funny you should mention that, I'm reading that book currently and I like it so far. (No spoilers please!)

Ah yeah I forgot that happened...lost a lot of good stuff that day RIP like most of my favorites were gone. I respect your privacy but at the same time that makes me more curious lol

@iyazo Buy the stuff you need, post your receipt, and I'll donate the amount. I recommend a Wal-Mart supercenter, they have both groceries and appliances, just don't go for the super fancy pricey stuff plz XD. PB&J sandwiches are great too, just bread, peanut butter, and jelly, I have it almost daily. But yeah get foods you think you'll enjoy, avocados, tangerines, apple crisps, bananas, trail mix, etc.

I'm guessing that multivitamin has 10mcg, apparently that's based on the limited biomarker measurements they did back in the 1950s. Today the recommended amount is actually 50mcg a day, which is what it is in Europe. If you find something that has 50mcg, that one is good daily. Usually supplements have higher dosage though, like 1000mcg or even 5000mcg. If you get the 1000mcg, that should be good taken every 3-4 days. 2000mcg is good taken once a week, etc.

Yeah I mentioned the Martian because you posted about it in Archaius' post.

@JustMegawatt I'm not sure when I'll be able to go out yet, but when I do I'll post the receipt. Hopefully the walmart isn't too far that an uber ends up being really pricy... If it does I'll just go to a closer grocery store and get some basic food. No worries, I'll keep it simple. I don't wanna end up buying more Stuff, like appliances, which is just going to end up in storage shortly.

Good to know about the vitamins, thanks!