No Nothing

7:52 AM

I just woke up a few minutes ago. Today is the day I'm choosing not to take part in any form of entertainment whatsoever except for reading. No music, no videos, no social media. Last night before going to sleep, I gave a friend $300 so he could get a laptop. He has never owned a laptop before except one in high school which broke after a year. Oh wait, I need to access social media to tell him more things.

8:28 AM

Okay I just finished sending him more advice. That did take a while. He is not that familiar with using computers, so I gave him more info and advice. I chose the computer for him, an i7 laptop with 16gb of ram and 512gb SSD, and gave him the money to buy it. He just had to pay another $100 extra since it was $400. I am actually very surprised anyone doesn't own their own computer these days, he says he mainly uses his smartphone for things.

I am also choosing not to eat anything the entire day today, this is as punishment to myself for eating over 4000 calories yesterday and for having fun with myself for too long. I have to reset my life in some way, and this is the way I'm choosing to reset it.

I'll consider May 1st as being the first day of my sobriety, even though technically I am starting today, April 30th 2021. It's a weird date though, and May 1st is just so much better.

8:11 PM

Today didn't go as planned. I ended up eating some food, for a laughable reason; because I got hungry. I mean hunger was expected, but I can't believe how easily I broke my restrictions for the day. At least I didn't eat until noon.

At around noon, I was thirsty for some juices. I wasn't planning on visiting YouTube today either, but I did. I visited YouTube and someone I watch started talking about juicing fruits and vegetables, something I have never done before. But that really piqued my interest. Juicing is this thing where you take fruits and vegetables and put it through this machine that basically squeezes the juices out of those fruits and vegetables. Most fruits and vegetables are like 80% water, so putting a carrot in a juicer for example actually releases a good amount of carrot juices. I always thought they had to add water or other liquids to make those juices, but nope, nothing added, just have to crush those fruits and vegetables.

I left home at around noon and walked to the nearby grocery store today, which was around 30 minutes away. It was a weekday and there was a bunch of cars and people everywhere. Actually, when I got to the shopping center where the grocery store was, I went to the mall first. My pants have holes on them, and I only have these pair of pants only. So I wanted to go to this mall so I could buy some new pants to wear. From my knowledge having explored the entire mall before, they only sold women's clothing here. I had to make sure though, so I went up to a lady who was hanging clothing up in one of the stores and asked her in Spanish if there were any stores here that had men's clothing, and she said in the entire mall there were not any.

Yeah so this entire mall has a bunch of clothing stores, like 6 or more clothing stores, but they only sold women's clothes in all of them. It was kinda cool just approaching the woman though and conversing in Spanish only. That was cool as heck. I mean I shortened our conversation here, I probably asked "do you have any men's clothes here?" first, and then when she said no, I asked "in the entire mall, is there a store that sells men's clothing?" and she replied back, and then I was like "gracias", and left. It was very casual.

Everyone here speaks Spanish to me. Everyone. Why? Do I look like I'm from here...? I mean, I get it, when I go on a plane to any Asian country, everyone speaks to me in their language, while to other people they will speak English. But here in Puerto Rico, anyone I approach just starts speaking to me in Spanish only. Like at the cash register today, as I was purchasing potatoes, juice, and peanut butter, the cash register attendant only spoke to me in Spanish, and I had no idea what she was saying. I understand their replies if I ask a question, because I have expectations and know the possibilities of what their answer could be, but she was just talking to me randomly in Spanish and I had no idea what she was saying.

So anyway those were the only things I bought. I bought 1 liter of this "Smart Juice Organic Antioxidant Force" for $6, 5 pounds of potatoes for $3, and some crunchy peanut butter for $3. Yeah the juice was expensive and it's not that much, but it was so good. I walked to that same concrete road block I sat on last week, and I sat on it again today, chilling there as I drank my juice while looking at the traffic.

I also observed this lizard that was crawling around as I drank, it was kinda long, probably slightly longer than a foot, and very thin. It looked like a snake. I watched as it snuck through the grass, very visible to me because I saw it entering the grass, and it was just crawling around in there, probably thinking I couldn't see it. It jumped up high and started sprinting when this huge truck came by and made a lot of noise, you know the noise huge trucks make when they slow down, it was this giant truck sigh, it was loud, and that made the lizard panic and sprint up to this nearby tree.

I got up from there and headed back. It's so much fun just walking through these neighborhoods. Oh yeah, I forgot, on the way to the grocery store, there was this hen walking around on the road. As I approached shirtless, with me carrying my shirt in one hand and whacking myself on my back and legs as I walked around, as to prevent any mosquitoes from approaching if there were any, this chicken was freaked out. It started clucking and screaming loudly as I approached, and it was right in front of this 7 or 8 foot fence, I couldn't touch the top without jumping. This chicken also started panicking much like that lizard and it leaped up this 7 or 8 foot fence, landed on the top, and jumped down on the other side. Yeah it was an incredible sight. Obviously I wasn't going to harm the chicken, but it was scared for its life and it flew.

Looking online, people are saying they can only jump 5 feet? This one jumped over my head and on top of this fence that I'd need to jump to touch the top of. It was really incredible. One day it's going to have its neck slit unnecessarily though and people are going to eat its corpse, very sad.

I arrived back at the mango tree, and why not, I grabbed some mangoes. I picked up six mangoes, and put them in the grocery bag. Only five are pictured because I ate one before taking that picture. I could have brought home like 20 mangoes if I wanted, but actually the mangoes fall on this concrete sidewalk, so most of the mangoes are cracked and are oozing juice on one side. I picked up the clean ones that didn't have any openings upon falling and brought them home.

I ate all these mangoes today, I finished drinking that juice I bought, and I ate like 9 potatoes, and I ate some peanut butter too. I mixed the peanut butter with jelly on a plate, and just dripped in and ate that. I wanted to make PB&J sandwiches but the bread I have started growing mold, a teeny tiny amount, but it was visible, so I just threw the entire thing away. I also ate peanut butter by itself, just dipping into the container and licking the knife.

I didn't complete as much at work as I wanted. Yesterday a co-worker told me that my boss' dad passed away recently and that's why my boss took the week off. My condolences to him.

After work, I was basically just on Facebook, browsing around, chatting with people. Hours passed by that way.

Also because Iyazo posted a selfie, this is my selfie haha. I have to wear a jacket because of mosquitoes. I'm also wearing pants and socks.

So yeah that was basically my whole day today. Today went by really fast, although I can't say I did much.