Dear Diary,
Hello again. I don't know how many different tools I have used to try journaling, but here I am again. This time I am trying to journal in a way stoics journal. Apparently the most famous stoics wrote in their journals consistently, so i want to pick this up again. I am trying to incorporate stoicism in my life. I will try to use this journal to log in my daily events, reflect on them and also to solve some problems I have. I am not sure how to do this but here I go.
So today, I have woken up late again, I seem to always wake up late lately. Even though I plan to wake up early, and I do wake up early, the problem is that I go back to bed straight away. I notice that I find it difficult to keep my eyes open and my body heavy. I do not have the energy to move at all. I feel fatigued. It could be because I go to bed quite late. Anyways, it's something I want to fix first. I have to be more determined to wake up early. To solve this problem, lets analyse the reasons why I don't wake up early.
My proposed solution to this is to do a little experiment. What if I try to force myself to wake up tomorrow when I wake up, just to see what will actually happen to me for the rest of the day. The worst case scenario is that I feel miserable and fatigued the whole day. The consolation to this though is that I will sleep earlier and will help me with my sleeping pattern.
On to the activities I did for today. I mostly just played this mobile game in the morning. What a waste of time. Anyways, it was very repetitive that I ended up gust giving up playing the game. I made mum berry smoothies, baked chicken schnitzel and steamed vegetables. In the afternoon, I went to the gym with Tina and she came over to my place. The emergency alarm at our place rang and we all waited outside the building. I didn't get to hear the reason as to why the alarm went off. I just got an email saying that all the smoke alarm in our apartment will be replaced by next week.
Anyways, T and I talked about her moving to Brisbane. I kinda joked about visiting her everyday, and her visiting me every week. Obviously she said no. I don't know how many times I got rejected by her. I'm used to it. The truth is I just want to spend more time with her. I am saddened by the news that she's going to be moving to Brisbane. I am worried that she'll move on from and start dating some else. But there's no point worrying. I guess if she likes me then somehow everything will workout. If she does end up moving on and dating someone new, that is because she never really liked me in the first place. I think I deserve someone who do really likes me. Someone who will put an effort to build a relationship with me.
Anyways, that's about everything I want to write in this journal for now.
Good night Diary!
Peatricia
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