Dropped ANJ Off, Picked Up Parents

5:55 AM (of Tuesday, November 30th 2021)

Today is Monday, November 29th 20221 and it was a day of transition for me. I didn't really do much else. I woke up this morning at around 4 AM, I did some things on my computer but I don't remember what. ANJ woke up at around 7 AM, and we went outside and walked almost right away. We walked for around 50 minutes today, and I grabbed some mail from the mailbox. She noticed I had these very convenient and lucky numbers for my mailbox, which was cool and something I didn't expect and didn't notice even though I've had it for a while.

We came back in and I did my Spanish lessons. Then we went out to this outdoor fruit market of locally grown fruits, and I bought $44 worth of fruits and it was a lot. I dropped her off and hugged her goodbye, it would be another few weeks / days before I see her again. The drive back home was lonely. She was with me since Thursday last week and we have been doing everything together. I learned to brace myself to not care so much after a person leaves though, we said we would see each other again next month once my parents leave. Well interesting, she texted me just now as I was writing my journal entry on the exact section when I was writing about dropping her off.

Anyway, I went home and it was around 12 PM at this point. I did "that" but I didn't release. I was about to, but prevented myself. I then just stopped at the moment I was about to release, and I think it was a miracle I stopped at this point, because it would usually be a point of no return. I was that close.

Then I ate for a bit and chilled on the futon. I took a nap and felt so many emotions during that nap. Sometimes I feel this enormous amount of energy flooding me as I'm about to wake up, it's forcing me to wake up. It makes me feel so many emotions of the past and of the future. I don't know If we have a word for it, but I know I'm not unique in experiencing this. It's that feeling of blood rushing everywhere as you are about to wake up from a nap, almost euphoric but different.

I check the time and it's about the time I should wake up and pick up my parents. I go and do that, and I pick them up from the airport. We drive home, and my mom sees my new place for the first time. The place is already clean and spotless, because ANJ has been cleaning it up every day without me ever asking. Then we go to Wal-Mart and buy some food for them, all vegan of course.

We go home and they prepare food and do some other things. I put up some videos on the TV, mostly Apple videos with Steve Jobs or more recent Apple videos about the M1 chips and the new computers. We watch them. I get tired and sleepy and go to my room. I could have done "that" again, but I was so sleepy. I just went to sleep.

That was my day today.