Day 10 of 14 of Water Fasting, Got 30 Kills and 0 Deaths, Quitting Mobile Legends Forever

6:08 PM (of Saturday, January 29th 2022)

Today is Tuesday, January 18th 2022 and I guess I mainly just played mobile legends today. This is my 10th day of water fasting too.

I'm not really sure what else happened throughout the day, I probably worked a little today, but I mainly just played and dominated in Mobile Legends. How much did I dominate by?

In one game, I got 30 kills and 0 deaths. I also got rank 2536 in the achiement leaderboards. There's millions of players in this game, and I am in the top 2600 players in the achievements leaderboards after playing for less than a week, I have only been playing this game for 3-4 days, seriously. I also got 30 kills and 0 deaths in a game which is quite an incredible feat. I have checked out the scores of the top 10 players in the achievement leaderboards, and none of them even come close to 30 kills in one single game, even including any number of deaths. I think the closest player had like 23 kills in one game, and that was his highest record out of hundreds or thousands of games he has played.

This game really sucks. There is no point in playing it. That's why I'm quitting. I dominated in this game. For the record, if I kept on playing this game, I would just be wasting my life but I would probably eventually beat this record and get like 40 kills 0 deaths in a game, eventually, if I kept on playing. I don't doubt that at all. I have literally only played 26 games in total, and very often I'm getting more than 15 kills a game and 0 deaths. In my first 3 games I averaged 16.333 kills and 0 deaths for those first three games. Yeah, I think eventually I would be able to get 40 kills and 0 deaths, but I don't want to waste any more time trying to achieve that. It's not even an achievement I would be proud of getting.

Okay so I got the 30 kills 0 deaths achievement, I think it's the "God Among Men" achievement. I completed that, barely anyone has even come close to achieving that. Yet I don't care. I really don't care. This is all for entertainment, and I got entertained momentarily. I feel really bad for all the people hooked on these addicting games. A lot of them are ruining their lives and squandering opportunities by being addicted to these games. Worse if they are "streamer viewers" and all they do all day is watch other people play video games. Worse still if the only streamers they watch are speed runners, like the biggest waste of time and life ever conceived.

Imagine you drew some maze on a sheet of paper. Now imagine someone solving it once. Yet, they're not done yet, they want to continually beat their time record for your maze by playing it over and over and over, thousands of times. Some of these people admit they play over 80 hours a week on video games, on speed running video games. 80 hours per week. That's double the amount of hours of a full time job! Imagine the kinds of things they could be achieving with all that time.

So yeah I achieved some incredible feats in this game, got rank 2536 in a game with millions of players. I got 30 kills and 0 deaths in my 26th game ever. On my first game I got 16 kills and 0 deaths, literally my first ever game in my entire life in this game. I have never played it before that, except the tutorials. And I picked a random character I had never heard of or played with or even knew about until the character menu came up, and I just randomly chose them. I think it's fair to say I would have potentially been a "prodigy" in this game due to how much I conquered in my first initial plays. I think that's a fair thing to say.

I achieved things people with 1000+ games have never achieved and I did that in my 26th game. So yeah I think it is completely fair to say I would have had a "good career" spending 80+ hours a week on this game. Yet, that would have been a waste of life. After a few months were gone, and I achieved, let's say, top 100 score in the achievements leaderboard, then what? Then what? Nothing. There would have been nothing to show for it. Would I have made any money from it? No. Would I have made any fame from it? Maybe.

But, do I really want to have fame, to be someone known as a video game player? No. "Wow that guy is good at playing some structured level another person made that has a single solution and straight path to beating it, he is so good." Oh, that just sounds like someone that has done nothing in their life.

Let's put a hypothetical scenario in which I became a top ranking "speed run streamer", in which all I do is solve one level over and over and over and over again, repeating all the same steps and moves I have already mastered, trying to beat the previous best score by one second. I have like 10,000 people watching me play this level over and over again. How would I feel? Probably really stupid. I think speed running is really stupid. Though, if life were just about money and fame, then it would be a better path and less tedious and boring than becoming a medical doctor or lawyer. Still, there are better paths out there such as being the person that makes the games, or becoming a musician. Other than being CEO of a top company like Apple and Microsoft, I think being a famous and top selling musician is the next best thing, in terms of significance. Then maybe third, would be CEO of a non-profit. Fourth, probably some celebrity on YouTube or Instagram.

Twitch streamers? Man. I feel like they have so much power and control too, yet it's over something extremely trivial and meaningless. I'm conflicted. Top streamers have so much power. Much more than most doctors and lawyers, and having that much influence can be priceless. Maybe it might be a good thing to strive for after all, but definitely not a "speed run streamer", I think they are the worst because they influence kids to give up their lives and play video games repetitively all day.

I don't know what I would have been able to accomplish had I not played Mobile Legends. I just know that now that I've conquered this game, there's nothing left for me here. So I uninstalled this game today. But then I installed it again the next day, not to play any games, just to get the daily dailies. I think I need to completely uninstall it again though, because I will never play another game again. 30 kills and 0 deaths is the perfect record to quit on.

That was my day today.