Starting again

I came here 8 times to write after the last one, but stepped back again and again. Because I've not been living up to my expectations.

My motivation was all gone, and now I know for sure that it won't always stay there. So I failed miserably in achieving any of the daily productive tasks for many days.

But that's not the end, I will be starting again with all the productive things and this time I'll try my best to not fall behind again.

I found a YouTube channel yesterday and the guy taught me that motivation and drive are different things and that I should not depend on motivation because it doesn't stay (at least for me). And that I should instead work harder for the drive. Right now, I agree with him and will follow his advice along with some other things he told.

Also about 10 or so days ago, I deleted my Instagram account permanently because I was hooked up to it lately and it was a serious problem, deleted my Facebook account permanently (I didn't use it much tbh) and some other social media which is clearly shit imo.

The "motivation" behind it was a documentary I watched, The Social Dilemma, I suggest that everyone should watch it even if they don't use social media. The documentary interviews people who were former employees of these social media apps, the one's who built it. And all of their opinions right now are all against the usage of these apps, these services. It'll be worth your time!

So yea I guess that's about it, see ya!